311217

insecure 

one day that wind is coming inside ... 

needy and clingy
id rather jump off a precipice
than ask for help 

rejected 
my social skills 
withered away 

everyone who fights
never asked to be born
no right to live 
don't belong in this world 

a second class citizen
unborn and unloved 

no monkey mother
n who gives a damn ? 
she went to a party 
with all the lonely people  

i caught your mood 
feels very disturbed

the party went home
n I'm left here alone 

to sweep up the dust 
defeated at last 

to leave you here like this 
only snatching a whisper 

261217

for everyone who fights 

n I'm forced to be here 
never asked to be born 

i don't have a right to live
don't belong in this world 
a second class citizen
unborn, unloved 

with no monkey mother 
who else would give a damn ? 

241217 / 251217 / 261217

she went to a party 
for all the lonely people 

defeated 

feeling very disturbed 
i caught your mood 

the party has gone home 
and I'm left here alone 
to sweep up the dust 

n I've got to leave you here like this 
only snatching a whisper 

231217

even just a little drink
could send her off the rails 
especially if she's on a date 
gets her into danger 

n nobody likes my songs 

song : conflict on the border

my heart and soul it gets
beaten up black and blue

can't afford to use the phone 
but I'm rocking out myself

theyre rapping on the wall
but who gives a damn ?

singin and playing my heart
like a knife this wild pain

twisting it deep inside  
puts their noses out of joint !

gives me an excuse 
to play it louder still 

that shadow just a bird
flying across the sun 

211217 

aggressive, monotonous, selfish, 
gross , stupid, hateful, shrill 
hostile, dangerous 

201217 

actually i did fancy him 
but not for very long 
maybe because 
there was someone else with him ... 

191217

that shadow 
was just a bird
flying across the sun 

181217

rapping on the wall 

they would rather 

i was the old fogey
who complains about the noise
and gives them an excuse 

to play it louder

but I'm rocking out myself
singing and playing
that put their noses out of joint !

171217 / 181217

my heart and soul 
beaten black and blue 

n i can't afford to use the phone 

like a knife 
twisting in my stomach 

this flickering light 
this wild pain 

song : pear drop moon

alone in the dark
unspeakable this 
strangled by pain 
my feelings are dead 

hostile ways 
on the border
humiliated 
by rejection 

n i don't really want to stay 

in this barren place
dry sticks in the sun 
parched of all life 
and dropping no fruit 

pear drop moon 
graveyard of dreams 

161217

n my heart doesnt work any more 

151217

like swallowing a ball 
of red hot lead

i just want to tell her 
how special she is
maybe just a kind word
or a warm hug 
from her baby girl 
might have saved her 

n i don't get no second chance 
how did i get so far away ? 

n who could be happy 
when they've left their mummy to die 

141217

alone in the dark

unspeakable
my feelings are strangling me
the death of my spirit

humiliation
hostilities on the border

maybe she doesnt love me
any more

n i don't really want to stay here
without her
i have no choice

in this barren place
dry sticks
parched in the sun
dropping no fruit

under a pear drop moon
the graveyard of my dreams

141217

alone in the dark 

111217 / 121217

unspeakable
my feelings are strangling me 
the death of my spirit 

humiliation
hostilities on the border 

081217 / 091217 

maybe she doesnt love me 
any more 

n i don't really want to stay here 
without her 
i have no choice 

in this barren place
dry sticks 
parched in the sun
dropping no fruit 

under a pear drop moon 
the graveyard of my dreams 

071217 

full of the juice of the earth 
the sap is rising 

song : boxing day

051217

strangled with rage
im choked and gagged

so shameful
my warfare

im so clingy
and insecure

my bitter heart
gone hard with cold 

drained of each drop
I'm like a tramp

boxing day
was for fights

after Christmas
was magical

broken our bond
mass hypnotised 

061217

mass hypnosis 

drained of every drop of life
she made me feel like a tramp 

boxing day was for fights 
after that magical Christmas 

embarrassed and humiliated 
the grief has torn us apart 
has broken our bond 

the guilt made us fight 


051217 

strangled with rage
im choked and gagged 

so shameful 
my warfare

im so clingy 
and insecure
my bitter heart 

has gone hard with cold 

031217 / 041217

strangled with rage 
im choked and gagged 

so ashamed
of my warfaring soul 

Im so clingy and insecure 
my bitter heart 

has gone hard with cold 

song : the gorilla mirror

011217

grinding my teeth 
with shredded nerves
glitter is gone
she's got the nark 

hostile am i ? 
too offensive
I'm just a human 
not just a case 

i have been smacked 
she doesnt like me 
im not allowed
my angry feelins 

with shaking hands 
and pounding heart 
she's on safari 
hunting me down  

too busy making 
her body thin
she's like a mirror 
insecure she