song : unfinished business

all alone 
with these terrible feelings 
why I'm all alone 
stuffing down my rage

what happened to my mother
what happened to my brother 
n im not functioning, 
its really precarious
like I'm on this tightrope 

treading on the ice 
fearing the abyss
n theres nobody there 
( ) my life is such a mess 

n what if we went 
to couple therapy 
there's always to be found 
some unfinished business 

lurking in the shadows 

260118 / 280118 / 290118 / 310118 

he's married now 
so this is all just in my head 
what might have been 

just had to plant that flag 

i don't know what to do 
with all these psychopaths 

i can't stand up in this wind 

song

im all alone
with these terrible feelings

why am i all alone ?
stuffing down my rage

what happened to my mother
what happened to my brother
what happened to me
my life is in such a mess

n im not functioning

really precarious
like I'm on this tightrope
like treading on ice
afraid of the abyss

n theres nobody there

n what if we went
to couples' therapy

there's always
some unfinished business
lurking in the shadows  

260118 

im all alone 
with these terrible feelings 

why am i all alone ? 
stuffing down my rage 

what happened to my mother 
what happened to my brother 
what happened to me 
my life is in such a mess 

230118 / 240118 / 250118 

I've had the life sucked out of me 

can you breed a human 
who is very robotic ? 

my face 
involutarily smiled at him 

210118 / 220118 

n im not functioning 

really precarious 
like I'm on this tightrope 
like treading on ice 
afraid of the abyss 

n theres nobody there 

n what if we went 
to couples' therapy 

there's always 
some unfinished business 
lurking about 

song : Id rather jump off a cliff

insecure and wretched 
one day that wind is coming inside 
needy i cling 
id rather jump off a cliff 
than ask a soul to help me 

and be rejected 
my speech has withered away 
i got the Christmas blues 
no partner no children 
no parents and no friends 

n now that we've switched off the phone  
the alarm bell rings 
n i can see right into your eyes 
n its not appropriate 

n i dont wanna feel my feelins 

160118 / 170118 / 200118 

my frequency of default 

no-one to bring me a tea 
n im zick 

n of course its the status that counts 
n i nearly forgot to pay 

song

insecure and wretched
one day that wind is coming inside ...

needy and clingy
id rather jump off a precipice
than ask a soul for help

rejected
my speech has
withered away

i got the Christmas blues
no partner, no children,
no parents, no friends

n now that we've switched off the phone
the alarm bell rings
i could see right into your eyes
n its not appropriate

n i dont wanna
feel my feelins 

080118

n i dont wanna
feel my feelins 

040118 / 050118 

n now that we've switched off the phone 
the alarm bell rings 
i could see right into your eyes
n its not appropriate 

E = MC2

020118 

i got the Christmas blues 

no partner, no children, 
no parents, no friends 

song : a second class citizen

261217 

everyone who fights                             A
never asked to be born 
no right to live 
don't belong in this world 

a second class citizen                             B
unborn and unloved

no monkey mother                                 A
n who gives a damn 
she went to a party                                C
with lonely souls 

i caught your mood                             C
feels very disturbed

the party went home                           D
I'm left here alone 

to sweep up the dust                          B
defeated at last 
leave you here like this                      A
only snatching a word