Monday, 29 October 2018

291018 / 311018 / 011118

i dabbled in the occult 

n we're no little angels 
the paint has a life of its own 

n every day I'm crackin up 
in this day of the dead 

his heart is nuked 
my dodgy hooded eyes

n all my fault 






Saturday, 27 October 2018

rap song : locked up again



when you have a mental illness
so many things you just can't say

shuffling my feet
dribbling at the mouth
sleepwalking

too much moon juice

drunk on the moon
shady , cagey even
guilty as charged

the partner would watch it
and use it to boost her own energy
which was then doubled

he took a film of his childhood sweetheart in bed
and showed it
to the woman he wanted to marry

which would lead to the firebreath

the satellite dishes
could see me in my room
and my online lovers
were invited to watch

with their partners in tow ...

i can't tell anyone whats wrong with me
i would get locked up again

not to dilute the feelings
you're trying to paint with

in this dreamy atmosphere
n this time the pidgeon
didnt bat an eyelid

make the clock go backwards
just like smack does
i took drugs
to stop the march of time 


and this we know 






















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Sunday, 14 October 2018


141018

mummy was bored and lonely
raising children on her own

mummy's sweet voice
her gentle touch
her loving eyes
her warm embrace

my mummy is a Goddess









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Saturday, 13 October 2018


131018

the things we've done
blingers in bar shorts
and this you know

Friday, 26 October 2018

261018 

when you have a mental illness
so many things you just can't say 

shuffling my feet 
dribbling at the mouth 
sleepwalking 

too much moon juice 










Tuesday, 23 October 2018

231018 / 241018

drunk on the moon 
shady , 
guilty as charged 

the partner would watch it 
and use it to boost her own energy 
which was then doubled 

he took a film of his childhood sweetheart 
having sex
and showed it 
to the woman he wanted to marry 

which would lead to the firebreath 

the satellite dishes 
could see me in my bedroom 
and my online lovers 
were invited to watch  

with their partners in tow ... 










Friday, 19 October 2018

191018 / 211018 

i can't tell anyone whats wrong with me 
i would get locked up again

not to dilute the feelings 
you're trying to paint with 

i also exposed myself in public 
during another breakdown 

but the police already know about that 









Thursday, 18 October 2018

181018

in this dreamy atmosphere 
n this time the pidgeon 
didnt bat an eyelid 


make the clock go backwards 
just like smack does 

i took drugs
to stop the march of time 










Sunday, 14 October 2018

141018 

mummy was bored and lonely 
raising children on her own  

mummy's sweet voice 
her gentle touch 
her loving eyes 
her warm embrace 

my mummy is a Goddess 







Saturday, 13 October 2018

131018 

the things we've done 
blingers in bar shorts 
and this you know 








Saturday, 6 October 2018

rap song : bunny boiler

not sure if i benefitted from it
and we ourselves deserved it
or was it a form of slut shaming ?

im a bunny boiler

i dreamed i lost 2 violins and 2 pairs of shoes
it opened up a chest of demons
like being striped naked
in front of other victims

in broad daylight

hung out to dry
did someone plan this ?

and i still depend on them

out on a limb
we were silenced
because the nurses
wanted a celebrity on board

how did that make me feel ?
it was like a shared experience
i was opened up to it

we were asked to make a sexual sound
and we heard each other

they were supposed to protect us
so now where do we turn ? 


my obsession is quite pathological
i feel angry
angry with the whole world

i was raised by tigers
i don't know how to talk to people
apart from a posh voice

n now im a radicalised savage









071018 

not sure if i benefitted from it 
and we ourselves deserved it 
or was it a form of slut shaming ? 






061018

im a bunny boiler 

i dreamed i lost 2 violins and 2 pairs of shoes 
it opened up a chest of demons 
like being striped naked
in front of other victims 

in broad daylight 

hung out to dry 
did someone plan this ?  

and i still depend on them 








061018

out on a limb 
we were silenced 
because the nurses 
wanted a celebrity on board 

how did that make me feel ? 
it was like a shared sexual experience 
i was opened up to it  

we were asked to make a sexual sound 
and we heard each other 

they were supposed to protect us  
so now where do we turn ? 









061018

rolling out, rolling over, bankrolled 

he's radicalised, 
so he terrorises me 
then i become radicalised as well 

i was raised by tigers
i don't know how to talk to people 
apart from a posh voice 








Thursday, 4 October 2018

041018

i ended up after dark 
half naked in a public park 
looking for rats 

the police laughed at me 
they wanted to know if i was on medication 
and the name of his dealer 

and that i knew ...









Wednesday, 3 October 2018

031018 

it would have been in there for some days 

then i was living in a house 
where my brother was dealing heroin 

i put urine in the kettle 
to frighten them off 

the poisoner has no honour ... 












Tuesday, 2 October 2018

031018

the doctor laughed at me 

i needed it
to cope with my schizophrenic boyfriend 

i put on an act

so i decided to be mentally ill 
in order to claim more money