311218 

is this all feeling a bit weird ?

maybe your date 
isn't who they said they were 

271218 

acid and mushroom trips 
were like being a kid again 

241218 / 271218 

the perfect crime 
did it cause you to become injured ? 

did it throw you off the bed ? 
did you feel broken, snapped 
like that could kill 
too much for your organs 

and tripping afterwards 
people have died from this
mystics have
or gone insane

which way up is this planet ? 

rap song : a sign in the woods

we shoved the magazines 
through his ex girlfriends door 

lit up by their head lamps 
we did moonies at passing cars 
in the middle of it 

flashed porn on the bus 


n she was to receive 
instructions from strangers .... 

we are gonna sit on that wall 
n take the next bus to the viaduct ... 
someone will attack you and he's just an actor ... 
n Chucky loves this Hitchock stuff 

the juggs is of course
near to the authors part of the woods 
a half way house , haunted loony bin 

fighting with drunk men 
gamblers, drug addicts 

I've certainly had my fair share of drunk men around 
dragging them across the floor bleeding 
going to A & E after midnight on a Saturday 
it was like a party in there 
with everyone showing off their injuries 

one of them jumped in the river 
so i had to go in too 

another one tried to kill himself 
in my living room 
gave himself a brain injury 


focus on your energy centres he said 
i knew id get one of the shorter ones 
i just wanted to know 
that someone effin meant it  

so i fought and fought to keep him 
tooth and claw 
and then i conceded defeat 
and started to help my rival 

she felt as though 
she'd been thrown across the garden 
clinging to a tree 

231218 / 241218

we shoved the magazines 
through his ex girlfriends door 

lit up by their head lamps 
we did moonies at passing cars 
in the middle of it 

flashed porn on the bus 

archives

Sunday, 10 November 2013

The Juggs

4pm 101113


n she was to receive 
instructions from strangers .... 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BDL5MDp8aPc 

753am 111113 

we are gonna sit on that wall 
n take the next bus to the viaduct ... 
someone will attack you and he's just an actor ... 
n Chucky loves this Hitchock stuff 

n in fact Mitchell did succeed today 
convincing her his reps 
were Devs ...

archives

10am 

542am 061113

oh you mean last night 

when i was down the juggs 

getting tanked 

they were going to film me were they 

yeah i reckon Chucky was phoning around 

pretty fast for some mates 

a premonition which 

came through the following night ... 

171218 / 181218

fighting with drunk men 
gamblers, drug addicts 

I've certainly had my fair share of drunk men around 
dragging them across the floor bleeding 
going to A & E after midnight on a Saturday 
it was like a party in there 
with everyone showing off their injuries 

one of them jumped in the river 
so i had to go in too 

another one tried to kill himself 
in my living room 
gave himself a brain injury 

111218 / 121218 

focus on your energy centres he said 
i knew id get one of the shorter ones 
i just wanted to know 
that someone effin meant it  

so i fought and fought to keep him 
tooth and claw 
and then i conceded defeat 
and started to help my rival 

she felt as though 
she'd been thrown across the garden 
clinging to a tree 

song : Merry Broken Christmas

for those from broken homes
who have just been chucked
who cannot afford their rent
and they have no friends

Merry Broken Christmas
may all your pain be healed
Merry Christmas pain
all this pain that you feel

lets share it together
lets not pretend
we've reached the end
this is the worst day of the year

with all its cheer
n smiling faces
getting drunk on fear
just to mask a tear

give me beans on toast
instead of this roast
lets cry and grieve
at least that will be real

Merry Broken Christmas
may all your pain be healed
Merry Christmas pain
all this pain you feel

041218 

we were straight edge 
living on our feelins
n it all got too intense 

exposure therapy i guess 

then i went down a disused railway cutting 
after dark 
with no underwear on 
looking for dogs 

rap song : screaming in agony

so why am i 
a bit of a slag ? 

florid sexualised symptoms they said 

and there i was 
kissing strangers on Westminster bridge
one of them led me to a park  
i was lucky  
i just cracked up laughing   

the glory of total freedom 
roaming around the streets screaming 
i could do whatever i wanted 
i had no fear 

she took a running leap 

my tongue hanging out feel vey zick
rolling you over onto the stretcher 
held in the love of strangers
a blanket of bliss  
screaming in agony 

two songs were playing in my head ... 
concussion strapped in tight 
the vehicle rattling away into the night 
like that gypsy move at 5 years old 
a tunnel to nowhere 
my legs tightly strapped together

the searing pain in my hip 
when they try lift me 

the door is slammed shut ... 
Im in a high security unit
surrounded by people who have just tried to kill themselves.  

My bags and pockets are searched 
for medications, and implements, and even plastic bags 
which are not allowed on the wards ... 

one lady tried to strangle herself with a tourniquet 

i was a whistleblower 

my fickle heart 
stays loyal to each one 

I'm as vulnerable as that chimp 
they can do what they want with me 

is Brexit the 3rd world war ? 
isn't it our turn 
to do a Gandhi ? 

my tongue hanging out feel vey zick
rolling you over onto the stretcher 
held in the love of strangers
a blanket of bliss  
screaming in agony

301118 

i had a wank outside the police station 
and one at Buckingham Palace 

so then i went to the sex addicts meeting 
and fancied someone there 

281118 / 291118 

i just imagined it all 
i sobbed in the ambulance 
over nothing ? 

being creative with the truth 
a point of law 

perfectly acceptable 
normal thing to do 

so why am i 
a bit of a slag ? 

261118

florid sexualised symptoms they said 

and there i was 
kissing strangers on Westminster bridge
one of them led me to a park  
i was lucky  
i just cracked up laughing   

221118 

tje police said if i did it again 
i would be nicked 

i was a whistleblower 

211118 

i exposed myself in the city at night 

i masturbated on the bus  
i took a small bird
put it in a pepper pot 
and made it fly out of my vagina  

after that i was detained 
under the mental health act 

211118 

i want to be one of those chimps 

where is the sanctuary for humans 

with people lovingly washing my face 

im an endangered species 

without a smart phone 

i slowly open a bottle 

like an orangutan 

finding it all very interesting 

the glory of total freedom 

roaming around the streets screaming 

i could do whatever i wanted 

i had no fear 

she took a running leap 

held in the love of strangers 

screaming in agony 

archives

Friday, 26 August 2016

hospital camp , new book ,

the searing pain in my hip
when they try to roll me over


260816 10.05 am

the door is slammed shut ...
Im in a high security unit
surrounded by people who have just tried to kill themselves.
They are very angry .

My bags and pockets are searched
for medications, and implements, and even plastic bags
which are not allowed on the wards ...

i watch people make further attempts in there
one lady tried to strangle herself with a tourniquet

The heating doesnt work
it comes on in Summer and goes off in winter
and my bedroom smells of ammonia ...

091213

mustard soya milk blackcurrant milk shake dog rose tea

irish pizza n suddenly she was a football pitch with people running about on her

pillowcase

from late 2013

i like the way those feelings flow, his hands inside my soul pulling at the branches shaking the leaves that massage the feelings like a ripe fruit sharing the juice ... a cocktail where we finally found our differences ...


071213 830pm

my tongue hanging out feel vey sick ... n plunge into the ventilator the emergency team arrive n you feel the love of strong hands rolling you over onto the stretcher a blanket of bliss screaming in agony

two songs were playing in my head ... concussion strapped in tight the vehicle rattling away into the night like that gypsy move at 5 years old a tunnel to nowhere my legs tightly strapped together kissing my hand

liverpuddlian pudding liver puddinlian pud a milky thing in Liver pool like fish n chips
hospital camp the culmination of all that went on in the 60s

ambulance AnE amnesia , can i have a hug please they don't usually get asked that i could only remember two songs 

rap song : gaslighting

171118

gaslighting
i could smell dog poo in here all day
like they've gone away
and left a used litter tray

im a terrible poissen

don't tell the groom
i was at my wedding to Dev
when Scaresy turned up in a tutu
bearing a plate of poo

most romantic thing i ever saw
my heart had never been so broken

pizza they called it

Fritz was too offing easy

how bout one of my exes
gives me away

my first love

drugs were nothing
compared to the adrenalin
and the violence

so i wandered about
in a graveyard
looking for rats in the rain
and played on the bus

halloween and bonfire night
bring up alot of dark forces

bitcoin was the last straw
that broke the camel's back

she took a running leap

there was horse meat
n there was venison
not to mention the beef

he said the paint
was peeling off the walls

100% horse meat they said
the pastie tax
and thats what Levison
was really all about

when you're a woman on your own
they're tapping into a dead girl's phone

171118

gaslighting
i could smell dog poo in here all day
like they've gone away
and left a used litter tray

151118 / 161118 

im a terrible poissen 

don't tell the groom 
i was at my wedding to Dev 
when Scaresy turned up in a tutu 
bearing a plate of poo 

most romantic thing i ever saw 
my heart had never been so broken 

pizza they called it 

Fritz was too fuckin easy 

how bout one of my exes
gives me away 

081118 

my first love 

drugs were nothing 
compared to the adrenalin 
and the violence  

051118 / 061118 

so i wandered about  
in a graveyard 
looking for rats in the rain 
and played on the bus

halloween and bonfire night 
bring up alot of dark forces 

bitcoin was the last straw 
that broke the camel's back 

she took a running leap 

there was horse meat 
n there was venison 
not to mention the beef 

he said the paint 
was peeling off the walls 

100% horse meat they said 
the pastie tax 
and thats what Levison 
was really all about 

they're tapping into a dead girl's phone 
when you're a woman on your own 

rap song : day of the dead

he found her dead on the floor 
n his heart is nuked 

n its all my fault 
a little dictator 
like a badly trained dog 

want to squeeze mummy 
and cuddle her back to life 
is there no end to the evil 
this little baby girl has perpetrated ?

selfish 
bad little baby girl 

inappropriate 
for her to enjoy life 
without her  
she must embody the tragedy 

oh no 
she has broken her mummy 

trying to grasp at thin air  
where she left 
my frustration knows no bounds 

the sweetest gentlest little deer of a Mummy
you could wish for 

want to hold her close 
and feel her heart 

theres blood on my hands and feet 
at the risk of making myself 
very unpopular 
i dont understand business
i just lie and i cheat  
with my dodgy hooded eyes

are we sweet enough ? 
n i believe in euthanasia  

i dabbled in the occult 
n we're no little angels 
the paint has a life of its own 

n every day I'm crackin up 
in this day of the dead 

041118 / 051118 

my hands and feet are bleeding 

the weather is telling me 
to pipe down 

at the risk of making myself 
very unpopular 

i dont understand business
i just lie and i cheat  

are we sweet enough ? 
n i believe in euthanasia  

291018 / 311018 / 011118

i dabbled in the occult 

n we're no little angels 
the paint has a life of its own 

n every day I'm crackin up 
in this day of the dead 

his heart is nuked 
my dodgy hooded eyes

n all my fault 

rap song : locked up again

when you have a mental illness
so many things you just can't say

shuffling my feet
dribbling at the mouth
sleepwalking

too much moon juice

drunk on the moon
shady , cagey even
guilty as charged

the partner would watch it
and use it to boost her own energy
which was then doubled

he took a film of his childhood sweetheart in bed
and showed it
to the woman he wanted to marry

which would lead to the firebreath

the satellite dishes
could see me in my room
and my online lovers
were invited to watch

with their partners in tow ...

i can't tell anyone whats wrong with me
i would get locked up again

not to dilute the feelings
you're trying to paint with

in this dreamy atmosphere
n this time the pidgeon
didnt bat an eyelid

make the clock go backwards
just like smack does
i took drugs
to stop the march of time 

and this we know 

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Sunday, 14 October 2018


141018

mummy was bored and lonely
raising children on her own

mummy's sweet voice
her gentle touch
her loving eyes
her warm embrace

my mummy is a Goddess









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Saturday, 13 October 2018


131018

the things we've done
blingers in bar shorts
and this you know

261018 

when you have a mental illness
so many things you just can't say 

shuffling my feet 
dribbling at the mouth 
sleepwalking 

too much moon juice 

231018 / 241018

drunk on the moon 
shady , 
guilty as charged 

the partner would watch it 
and use it to boost her own energy 
which was then doubled 

he took a film of his childhood sweetheart 
having sex
and showed it 
to the woman he wanted to marry 

which would lead to the firebreath 

the satellite dishes 
could see me in my bedroom 
and my online lovers 
were invited to watch  

with their partners in tow ... 

191018 / 211018 

i can't tell anyone whats wrong with me 
i would get locked up again

not to dilute the feelings 
you're trying to paint with 

i also exposed myself in public 
during another breakdown 

but the police already know about that 

181018

in this dreamy atmosphere 
n this time the pidgeon 
didnt bat an eyelid 

make the clock go backwards 

just like smack does 

i took drugs
to stop the march of time 

141018 

mummy was bored and lonely 
raising children on her own  

mummy's sweet voice 
her gentle touch 
her loving eyes 
her warm embrace 

my mummy is a Goddess