Thursday, 28 October 2021

291021

baby mother harrassed me in an oa zoom meeting 

with ' im a cat, feed me slut ' 

 

 

 

281021

baby mother , number 2 and clips 

got together to sanction my posts on a thread 

it was a nonsense thread anyway so how can i be off topic ? 

they did this because of their sexual issues 

and i dont find it sexy when number 2 does these things 

 

 

 

Wednesday, 27 October 2021

281021

Mary Christmas 

 

 

 

281021

speaking of rude 

baby mother had me sprayed with virussy perfume yesterday 

while i made my way down a ramp on crutches 

 

 

 

 

271021

sometimes there is doing done 

from a position of superiority 

which is not empathy 

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, 26 October 2021

271021

chuckster is contacting musicians i have played on the mental health forum 

and asking them to diss me for political reasons 

apparently this makes him God 

 

 

 

271021

thankyou yes its sorted itself out now 

i will save it for next time 

 

 

 

261021

dairy makes alot of mucus

 

 

 

Monday, 25 October 2021

251021

her mates watched my viscous video on satellite 

and he fell for it 

whats new 

 

 

 

 

251021

number six wants a divorce whats new ? 

 

 

 

251021

i am swollen like a boil ready to burst 

the music sounds visceral 

like the paper peeling off the walls 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunday, 24 October 2021

241021

having to watch us must be horrific 

 

 

 

241021

electric flashes 

 

 

 



241021

empaths are not always kind
there are dark empaths or those with a dark side too

at the extreme end manifesting in the occult



 

241021

with trembling hands 

and trembling heart 

i offer up my soul 

 

 

 

Saturday, 23 October 2021


241021
 
the energy of a light worker 
a body of light 
that  blurs and hazes
Vwoorp Vwoorp 
a broken down piano frame 
scraped with a key 
with loads of feedback

 

 

241021
 
there was a young neighbour tapping on the wall 
that was kinda rough 
but he knows what hes doing 
not sure if im going to need another one
 
things seem to be moving
as though there is wind when there isnt 
like the wallpaper is peeling 
 
he doesnt need to explain person centred 
rogerian psychotherapy  
and all tha follows 
n im not even all that well tonight 

 

 

 

 

 

word jam : painting as a song





the cam girl is about to tell me
that nobody is listening and that I'm tired
which she does about 1 am every night

chuckster getting started
on his ' married couple standup routine '
author is weighing in too
with her very public desire for me
n she promotes gay conversion therapy

chuckster and other occult forces
probably ruined a few of my relationships
so that i dont know how they would have panned out

k n im waiting for someone to turn me on

painting as a song
my legs were shaking
n this is not about politics
ive made a little ghost baby

i smell great
after all that light blasting through me

taking out all my anger
rubble falling away
a blissful devastation
fluffy plumes of pink light
like fairy lights in the window

there were only two players
but the other one was not aware of the game
light released from the root chakra
leaving a crater

the tension builds to a crescendo
like a bucking horse
finding energy i didnt have
i am caught on the end of a hook
thrashing about and gasping for air
my limbs splayed like an octopus

i could have picked someone more convenient
for an easier life
but then i wouldnt get the growth

he is light hearted and fun
without being shallow
and his communication is very contemporary and kind

i melted like a Salvador Dali

im not very ceremonious am i

earthquake techtonic plate
my sense of reality is shaken
the earth opens up and swallows me
is this the psychosis that saw Ophelia

shimmering scintillation
muscle spasms like a snail

thats a bit personal isnt it
it stings like a wasp
nearly got side tracked there
but not where you think
i am obliterated
never mind their artful tactics
we are scatologically ours
nobody does it better

whole heap a trouble
tryna keep up with a young stud




231021

A1 and baby mother had me harrassed at the supermarket 

 

 

 

Thursday, 21 October 2021

211021

painting as a song 

 

 

 

 

Tuesday, 19 October 2021

201021

my legs were shaking 

 

 

 

191021

k step 1 is called Name 

 

 

 

191021

this is not about politics 

 

 

 

 

191021

k so i work with my ex so we're quits 

but you are very judgmental about that 

 

 

 

191021

ive made a little ghost baby  




191021
 
you told me Nic was a casual thing 
but somehow you have become her daughters step father 
its difficult to get my head around that 
especially with us having no way of contacting each other 

 

 

Monday, 18 October 2021

181021

k now baby mother is defending me against my relatives 

 

 

 

181021

opulence 

 

 

 

181021

im not currently feeling turned on by number two 

but we can go for a coffee if he wants 

 

 

 

 

 

181021 

omission , cuckooing




181021

number two just protected me from thc chuckster 

both of them can see what is going on here from satellite 

 

 

 

181021

the chuckster is threatening to collaborate with my young neighbours

in the hope i will go back to him 






Sunday, 17 October 2021

171021
 
i can smell my womb
and it smells great ! 
after all that light blasting through it 

 

 

 

Saturday, 16 October 2021

171021

baby mother planning the offensive on number six again 

 

 

 

 

171021

nic is harrassing me online 

 

 

 

161021
 
taking out all my anger 
rubble falling away 
a blissful devastation  
fluffy plumes of pink light 
like fairy lights in the window 

 

 

 

 

161021
 
there were only two players 
but the other one was not aware of the game 
light released from the root chakra 
leaving a crater 
 
the tension builds to a crescendo 
like a bucking horse 
finding energy i didnt have 
i am caught on the end of a hook 
thrashing about and gasping for air 

my limbs splayed like an octopus


 

 




 

 

 

Friday, 15 October 2021

151021

stepmother 1 is on the 5 , 2 diet 

and on hangry days she takes it out on me 

 

 

 

Thursday, 14 October 2021

151021

baby mother heading over to number 6 again 

to kidnap him for mating duties 

 

 

 

141021

i could have picked someone more convenient 

for an easier life 

but then i wouldnt get the growth 

 

 

 

 

141021 

chuckster getting started

on his ' married couple standup routine ' 





Wednesday, 13 October 2021

141021

number 2 also has access to my private therapy session 

he is the one who hacked it 

i mean what would be the point 

of dating someone who sits and listens in 

through your whole therapy session on zoom ? 

somehow i dont have access to their private conversations ... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

141021

great so my husband has access 

to what i said in therapy 

and uses that to react to 

rather than getting his own therapy 

cue the chuckster is about to weigh in on that snore 

 

 

 

131021

difficulty uploading a screen recording of my painting 

to my youtube channel 

 

 

 

 

131021

he is light hearted and fun 

without being shallow

and his communication is very contemporary and kind 

 

 

 

 

1311021

baby mother hacked in to my private therapy on zoom 

and leaked my thoughts to my husband 

 

 

 

 

131021

aunt 2 wants me hospitalised 

because she thinks it might improve her suns art work 

 

 

 

 

131021

baby mother has a view to giving me covid 

 

 

 

Tuesday, 12 October 2021

131021

author is weighing in too 

with her very public desire for me 

 

 

 

 

 

121021

baby mother and number two 

want to ban comments on my youtube channel 

in order to split me from number six 

let no man put asunder whom god hath joined together 




 

 

 

Monday, 11 October 2021

121021

someone is hanging about my vulnerable friends house 

 

 

 

111021

nic is threatening to cause physical harm to my nephews 

 

 

 

 

Sunday, 10 October 2021

101021

i melted like a Salvador Dali 

 

 

 

 

101021

im not very ceremonious 

 

 

Saturday, 9 October 2021

091021

earthquake techtonic plate 

my sense of reality is shaken 

the earth opens up and swallows me  

is this psychosis what saw Ophelia

 

 

 

091021

number six and i just got married again ! 

 

 

 

Friday, 8 October 2021

081021

shimmering scintillation 

muscle spasms like a snail 

 

 

 

081021

men were sent to bother me at lunch time 

with continual f word 

 

 

081021
 
thats a bit personal isnt it 
it stings like a wasp
nearly got side tracked there 
but not where you think 
i am obliterated
never mind their artful tactics
we are scatologically ours 
nobody does it better 







Thursday, 7 October 2021

071021

she is saying its already been done 

probably not ... thats part of the psychology 

is to make it a faite accomplis 



071021

baby mother trying to kidnap 6 again 

 

 

 

Wednesday, 6 October 2021

061021

someone has gone and rattled 

my vulnerable friends door handle 

without knocking ... 

 

 

 

061021

baby mother made a beeline for my vulnerable friends cats 

 

 

 

061021

number 2 blackmailed my older neighbours 

to names drop in the garden 

they are trying to stop me getting an art course 

 

 

 

 

Monday, 4 October 2021

041021

clips is planning on kidnapping number 6 

kidnappying i wrote by mistake 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sunday, 3 October 2021

041021

k im waiting for someone to turn me on 

 

 

 

031021

the author sent a rep into my food recovery programme 

to promote gay conversion therapy 

 

 

 

Friday, 1 October 2021

021021

n yeah im on a slippery slope at the moment 

im very angry that my brother is so dangerously ill  

and i dont know how to get off this trip 

obviously i cant be in the mood for romance at the same time 





021021

well what is my blog for if i cant get my feelings out on it 

my nephews mother is after my money 

i know that because ive seen it 

only way she will get that is if i leave it to my nephew 

 

 

 

021021

number 6 leaving again 

along with that a very difficult life

long with that a whole heap a trouble  

tryna keep up with a young stud

 

 

 

021021

the cam girl is about to tell me 

that nobody is listening 

which she does about 1 am every night 

 

 

 

011021

my nephews mum

is trying to drive a wedge between myself and him 

well i could always change my will couldnt i !

 

 

 

011021

baby mother wants my face disfigured with acid or something

 

 

 

011021

they try to move my brother in with me 

and im looking at my first overdose 




011021

number 2 is planning to have me paralysed

when i go for my hip op in a couple of months time