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my aura fans out like a firework 

firing shots of white energy 

as im turned inside out , 

the strength in my muscles suddenly apparent 

feeling no longer weak 

 

burning up  like a sunny day

 

 

 

 

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musts and shoulds 

 

 

 

 

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women can do mens jobs if they want to 

and if they have been encouraged to develop those skills since childhood

Steve Backshalls latest show has two women in it 

also depends what kind of condition we are in mentally and physically 

rather than what gender we are 

 

 

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i used the butterfly pants
might have to sell up
yes the same thing has happened again
we've shagged each other
im also on anti psychotics
and a bang on the head
repercussions thoughout the body
he has an aura of sunshine
warm bright light which dazzles me
and creases me up

n ive been bombed again 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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sorry 

 

 

 

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i may be over reacting 

im not feeling that great in myself today 

 

 

 

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now he is cheeking me 

and feeling controlled 

so im filing for divorce 

looks like Christmas with the chuckster 

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somethings trying to get my attention today,

I lost my keys, my phone failed

there is a terrible pain in my side

and my broken gutter is rapping on the window !

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k but she seems to be your entire social life 

like youve not bothered to move on and make new friends 

and your having alot of contact with her 

lays me open to her abuse 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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theres too much going on between number 6 and Nic 

and im thinking about a divorce 

 

 

 

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a warm bright energy field 

 

 

 

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an aura of sunshine 

 

 

 

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if i have issues that need attending to 

that is a priority for me 

 

 

 

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most people are not confident
although they might pretend to be as a front
its normal to feel shy in the presence of someone you dont know
especially if you admire them

 

 

 

 

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he is like a werewolf 

seems meek and mild until ... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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harangued 

 

 

 

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I think the statue of Virginia Woolf will remain in peoples debates now
its a stunning piece of work
and would look really surreal by the Thames

sure someone would attack it
it would be symbolic of their feelings towards women 

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im still with number six 

there is a character that i thought was number six 

that i now think isnt 

 

 

 

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ive lost the sense that i know who im talking to 

 

 

 

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how to turn water into wine 

be really thirsty ! 

 

 

 

 

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i have no idea who im talking to 

but the music is talking to me 

 

 

 

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helping me was different from helping my brother 

as i was always in some kind of treatment 

 

 

 

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love comes first 

 

 

 

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rubbed raw 

 

 

 

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there is a little bit of light in the sky 

 

 

 

 

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I guess there are times when people have had to fight

an act of pacifism to be effective is timely
and often comes from one who is engaged in battle
who realises at a certain point

that fighting is not to his advantage

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like a porcupine 

 

 

 

 

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today i thought to myself that i am ready ...

im ready to have the courage to take the risk ... 

of letting my brother hit rock bottom , 

to sink or swim as he chooses 

over the past year i have asked relatives to speak to him 

because i couldnt do it all by myself and most of them have obliged  

and its time for me to stop doing that now 

im tempted to call the hospital tomorrow to find out how he is doing 

one day at a time i will try not to do that 

 

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it bent me over double 

 

 

 

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he was giving me my first orgasm in a cupboard 

pleasuring plays a big part in modern day torture 

the light was blazing 

didnt take much notice of the other guys 

then i gave birth to a baby cat 

the tension built around us to a fever pitch 

all over in ten minutes 

 

 

 

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im living in a war zone 

with my brother nearly dying every five minutes 

and a war game going on next door to boot 

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Wabbit the kitten had wild night time hunting eyes 

 

 

 

 

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sometimes ive thought of number two again 

and then i remember how hard he bolted 

to get out of the relationship

 

 

 

 

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I've only had a handful of relationships about 8 real life ones
and 4 online ones

it always happens that the moving on just happens
and a part of me will rail against it
because the grief is complicated when the person is still alive
and a part of you doesn't believe you have moved on
and is angry about it

and yet the moving on is undeniable and set in stone
because of the way I've grown





 

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my husband is the rising sun 

and the moon at night 

and everybody loves a villain 

word jam : the dark side of empathy

check out the atmosphere of that constellation
its enough to baffle Confuscius 

i dont have a body

if Picasso were alive today
he would probably paint a drug addict
with striking hands and feet

but the man gets to be an artist
and his wife gets to be ... his wife !

Mary Christmas

sometimes there is doing done
from a position that is not empathy

empaths are not always kind
there are dark empaths and those with a dark side
at the extreme end manifesting in the occult

with trembling hands
and trembling heart
i offer up my soul

the energy of a light worker
a body of light
that blurs and hazes
Vwoorp Vwoorp
a broken down piano frame
scraped with a key
with loads of feedback

there was a young neighbour tapping on the wall
that was kinda rough
not sure if im going to need another one

things seem to be moving
as though there is wind when there isnt
like the wallpaper is peeling

he doesnt need to explain person centred
rogerian psychotherapy
and all that follows

thankyou yes its sorted itself out now
i will save it for next time
having to watch us must be horrific
electric flashes

dairy makes alot of mucus
i am swollen like a boil ready to burst
the music sounds visceral
like the paper peeling off the walls

little tiny antar movements
micro jerks, little bucks
stuck in a groove , this record never tires
he has a monopoly on it

n i wasnt made in Chelsea

he looks like a Picasso ha ha
ive never seen him !
he just blows me away

gentle pumps

n i can smell the fear
coming from the neighbours

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check out the atmosphere of the constellation 

 

 

 

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it was number six this time 

 

yes were still married 

 

 

 

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its enough to baffle Confuscius 

 

 

 

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if Picasso were alive today

he would probably paint a drug addict 

the hands and feet are really important 

in a Picasso painting 

 

 

 

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so the man gets to be an artist 

and his wife gets to be ... his wife ! 

 

 

 

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little tiny antar movements 

micro jerks, little bucks 

stuck in a groove , this record never tires 

he has a monopoly on it 

 

n i wasnt made in Chelsea 

 

he loolks like a Picasso ha ha 

ive never seen him !  

he just blows me away 

gentle pumps 

n i can smell the fear 

in my neighbours' shit