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number two 

says hes going to sue me for all i have 

because he didnt win 

bit mean considering how rich he is 

cam girl is about as well 

trying to get me put in a home 

she is a social worker in my area 

 

 

 

 

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I have difficulty expressing my irritation as well go along
because its usually considered unacceptable by those around me.
I think especially because there is a backlog of it
so that if I express my irritation
the other person gets more of it than they deserve

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a band called the Wild Party Cats

releases singles calle The Yowling Match 

and Caterwauling 

 

 

 

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it sticks out like a sore thumb

 

 

 

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9 pm 

my vulnerable friend 

is unable to get online 

the author and number two have organised this 

 

 

 

 

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the author has declared war on me
in her fight to get into my pants
apparently she is armed,
this involves her interfering in my medical case
and speaking to my doctors.

i have not given permission for her to speak to my doctors
and i am not her partner

i think part of the agenda is to steer me towards user service groups

so that the author can make an entrance 

 

 

 

 

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number two is disrupting my vulnerable friends 

computer and internet services 

 

 

 

 

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im still with number 6 

 

 

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the author says its favouritism 

that i dont want to have sex with her 

 

 

 

 

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nutcracker

 

 

 

word jam : mothers milk

 


its like getting mothers milk
 
empathy sympathy and compassion
are all different things
 
magic is found
in the depths of loneliness
 
i thought about making a film with someone
 
i feel dizzy and sick now
i feel quite ill
there were a few cameos
and i keep being drawn back to this film
i saw years ago on telly
kind of a consensual  
 
 
he said he'd do cabbage
and i totally loved that idea
its where i started off
thats not where it ended
i went right back to when i cheated on someone
30 years ago

clue - yous are trying to be alpha males
 
its a very good book though
i hope people will read it

what if there is no left and right any more

im getting the image of a bow and arrow
if i pull back far enough
there is more chance that an arrow of love
will fly from my heart

 
i asked him if we could go in a car  
and we got stuck
and all the priests turned around
its art for arts sake
n im pushed for time
make it a quick one
i am turned inside out
 
to paint is to speak another language
 
a scorpions tail gust
an aura of light 
 
im scared of dogs
but i like the idea
teach me how to like em
while you give it a hammering
i cant get out because of the storm
n we're smokin '

the pressure in my heart and chest
as the pain rips toward my head
 
 
 

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doing a blow job 

is like getting mothers milk 

 

 

 

 

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empathy sympathy and compassion 

are all different things 

 

 

 

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magic is found 

in the depths of loneliness 

 

 

 

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i thought about making a porn film 

with a taxi driver 

 

 

 

 

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i feel dizzy and sick now 

i feel quite ill 

there were a few cameos 

and i keep being drawn back to this port film 

i saw years ago on telly 

kind of a consensual gang bang 

 

 

 

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he said he'd do my cabbage

and i totally loved that idea 

its where i started off 

thats not where it ended 

i went right back to when i cheated on someone 

30 years ago

and got an orgasm from the cheating 

but is there more in there ? 

nope its gone numb now 

 

 

 

 

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i didnt say who the other husband was 

could be any  of em ... 

 

 

 

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clue - yous are trying to be alpha males 

 

 

 

 

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number 6 feels bitter 

that ive not read his book yet 

and has suggested to Nic 

that she watch footage of me in bed 

 

 

 

 

 

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i stand a bigamist 

 

 

 

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its a very good book though 

i hope people will read it 

to find out more about the illness 

 

 

 

 

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i dont think i can read your book at the moment 

not through lack of interest 

but because its taking me back into my illness

i hope to pick it up again at a later point x

 

 

 

 

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baby mother sent a botoxed actress 

to harrass me at the supermarket with germs 

and is threatening my home through the housing association 

she would also like me to stop writing these articles ! 

just when i was trying not to write them 

so much for that ! 

 

 

 

 

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what if there is no left and right any more 

and this is the beginning of ' you will own nothing '

 

 

 

 

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im getting the image of a bow and arrow 

if i pull back far enough 

there is more chance that an arrow of love 

will fly from my heart