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n i don't really wanna be here 
cus she's gone 
she has took me with her 
n im zick 

n fear is my default position 

this biting hunger 
alienated , cold inside, 
rigid with shock , traumatised 

that warm motherly feeling 
that i can't have 
i feel like an empty chair 

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i think I've got my wires crossed 
starving for love 

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he hasn't phoned 
tears are the rain 
that waters the garden 

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sexual feelings 
are very inconvenient 

n i can't speak
unspeakable things have happened 
that you don't wanna know about 

fancying people 
makes you stupid 
it makes you do bad things 

that freak meditation 
opened a can of bats 

n he's not my type 
in any shape or form 

i had a fantasy 
based around John Terry cheating on his wife 
how sad is that ! 

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my computer wont auto sleep 

the fib are bugging it ? 

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even an animal 
can sense the pressure 

captivity 

my husband has no idea 
what I'm going through 

n if i fancy someone 
i could come unstuck 
n get locked up 
or might have a baby 

n it just killed me 
when he asked me what i do 
it all hit her as she walked up the aisle 

the summer atmosphere all visceral 

a new feeling 
I'm nobody's dogsbody doormat
a nasty girl 

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i feel like I'm going to explode 
its all about doing doing 
cus we gotta get the job done 

 slammed up in a loony bin 

i jumped out of a window 
and fractured my hip 
because they were watching me 
on their satellite dish 

n i was tiny