savage , alienated 
a token fetish 

its subtle 

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i sat through two hours of it 
this guy telling us 
to focus on our genitals 

i tried to protest 
but he just thought 
i was enjoying it 
sitting next to a schizophrenic 
who took a shining to me 

i thought it was my fault 

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he kicks hard against the boundary 
we are the backbone of the system 

its like I'm some sort of stray animal  
not used to talking to humans ... 

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target face 

the torture 
of watching him slip away 

i forgot my meds 
theres alot of pressure inside 

where is my voice ?  

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the healing power of the moon 

he terrorises me 

i feel so bad
i wasnt there for him 
when she died 

he was in the same room 

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a blind frenzy of pain 
he's killing himself 
just like mummy did 

n im lashing out 

why am i a beggar ? 
this is an enigma

he pushes me under
under the glass floor 
its quite subtle 

rotting flesh 
creeping up the walls 

im a radicalised savage 

my obsession is quite pathological 
i feel angry 
angry with the whole world 

how could i be so stupid ? 

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my organism blew me away 
literally 
i am no more