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today I have sat with a feeling of failure

I cannot complete any more coursework
which means that I may not pass it

I think it will be the first time I have failed a course

im making progress with the feeling

broken

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the words backwards game

and starting with the last letter of the last word

noitcelfer

next one starts with r

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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miss you blue surprise 

 

 

 

 

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i had to end it with somebody else  

because it was too intense 

it was never going to happen 

any old fantasy will do at that point 

do you know what i mean ? 

anyway im single 

but it was all about you 

n Dev taught me a thing or two 

but hes gone now 

Dev n Scarey always in my heart 

a real head banger 

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the past is important 

and we need the space to heal from it 

 

 

 

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i thought Polanski was a child molester 

 

 

 

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difficult feeling to sit on  

ive tried to work but im flat on my back 

try not to react to it 

i have not mastered a feeling until i can sit with it 

total wipeout had me on my death bed 

sometimes i have a blackout 

n the moon shone bright clear as a bell 

 

but did react to it