23.24

convincing ... 

040715  4pm

I suppose the fantasy might be related to love addiction 

if its about someone thats not actually here ... 

i got involved in flaming on the internet 

and was banned from some websites 

which wasnt really fair 

as there were other people that got away with it ... 

the person owning a website 

seems to be able to do what they like 



030715 2pm 

the moon

looked all kind of melted 

with its clouds ... 

4pm

English Independence Day ! 

1am

have you actually consulted a specialist ? 

too busy being thin to think about anyone else ... 

and then I've got this to deal with as well ... 

Im struggling in the heat and easily depressed 

praise the good behaviour ? 

vanity 

a fairy tale 

1.48am 

roadkill ... 

7.50am 

when do i ever get any thanks or praise ? 

like well done for phoning him when you are not well yourself ... 

I liked your recent comment

about 'revelling in being dirty'

very poetic ...

Germaine Greer has done alot of stuff on that

i think in The Whole Woman

i actually couldn't finish the book

as i felt too squeamish about it

she says women spend too much time pampering themselves 

with lotions and douches and stuff

as if we are clinically misogynistic towards ourselves.

I was saying that before i went into hospital 

i was really starting to grasp this point

and was having a shower every two days

it was wonderful ! and so healthy for your skin to be left alone too ...

and then i lost it because of being assaulted by a female patient ...




020715 23.45



1.28am 

i do believe in God but who said he is nice ?

23.29

why is Lenny Henry 

dreaming of being a white man ... 

19.45

Dear Dad 

im not really unwell ? 

so what is the medication for then ... 





love Liz ... 

I suppose its good news if i can come off it