210816 1am
i find feelings contagious
1.30 am
they hold you down , turn you over and pull your pants down
before delivering the injection
so anyway i jumped out of a first floor window
and fractured my hip.
fed up of those intelligence agencies
that watch you in your bedroom
via satellite
and selling information about me
200816 11.25 pm
it was Christmas Eve ...
they held me down and forcibly medicated me
because i wouldn't stop screaming.
I was screaming because they were going to medicate me
which i thought was death to my soul
and i told them so ...
when i told my brother he cried
and gave one of the nurses an earful ...
i must be quite wired and stressed
as i am not gaining weight.
this also happened in hospital
when i was eating alot of chocolate without gaining ...
i was constantly watching my back
trying to stick up for myself
against the other patients, and also the staff ...
10.40 pm
I was slapped on the bum
by an enormous lesbian
i had just had a wank ( behind a curtain )
and so it felt all the more intrusive ...
after i left the report said
that i had been masturbating in a communal area ...
But sometimes i miss the camaraderie in there
now that I'm at home
accompanied by the tv
and the smell of my own farts ...
200816 9.10pm
in the mental hospital
I got quite good at negotiating what we were going to watch on tv ...
and those people are not easy to get along with ...
" what about me ... and my friend here ? "
" Ive already arranged with someone else
that I'm going to watch this "
you can't be aggressive about it.
some of the patients would get into a power struggle.
21.55
I go to a support group for sex addicts
which is full of pedophiles
some of whom are in treatment ...
hi Ben, congrats on the new relationship !
my favourite ACDC memory
was some years back doing a sun dance to Sink the Pink,
it was on full blast in her flat, and it worked !
she had aspergers and was the funniest person next to my brother.
We fell out unfortunately and don't often meet these days.
Depression Cherry reminds me a bit of Zero7 YeahGhost
which has a supernatural feel , echoes of Eskimo music ,
e.g. the Residents , Festival of Death worth a listen.
All the best ...
