020916   1 am 

me, i don't even get to the start line 

6.40 pm 

the complexity is staggering

and those subliminals in the cover versions ... 
taken from my worst shots : 
did you even see that ?  

the fib
can make a sound in your bedroom 
so that you don't know where its coming from . 
People think its a spirit ... 

flashback ...

23.47  

my earliest memory is my 1st birthday party 
i was carried into a dark room 
where someone had lit a cake full of candles 

i wish i could go further back ... 

MrKatyia4 hours ago


hi Ben MrKatyia is too scared to listen to that ! actually i did watch horror when i was a child, including Jaws, and the Saturday night thrillers which i still remember. i also saw The Shining and The Exorcist at cinemas in London. The Shining was in Harrow and The Exorcist at Holloway Road. at both events, the audience was mainly teenagers in absolute hysterics of laughter which made for rather a fun evening. i eventulaly had to stop watching horror as i found it too difficult to spend a night on my own with nobody else in the house ... :)


and my brother used to play on my fears by hiding in the wardrobe and stuff !


ha ha, i think one time he got a knife and warned me he might have a sudden impulse ! he was only joking of course. we also used to have punch ups over Monopoly actual physical ones ! i was bigger than him until we were about 12

10.25 pm 

when he bit into my finger
i screamed like an old man 


8.35 pm 

my father 
was hammering on the door
howling my name 

i was inside with a violent man ... 

The Rail Dispute

010916 

GTR are offering an 8 point deal 
to resolve the crisis
which basically means 
they do guarantee a second member of staff on board
'except in exceptional circumstances' 
i.e. if a conductor is not available the train will still run. 

on paper this deal looks like progress 
that they are acknowledging there are safety issues involved 
if you remove the guard 

however the question still remains ... 
where a train is running without a second staff
what happens if the driver is knocked unconscious 
and is therefore unable to alert other trains in the network . 

that should be a fairly simple question to ask. 

Southern have also implied in their reply 
that i lack patience ! 

010916   1.15 pm 

' this is death to me ' i screamed
as they held me down 
and forced an injection of Clopixol

' death to my spirit ' 

010916   5.40 pm

time to woman up ? 


310816   10.10 pm 

im not prepared for this
i have no training for the role, no precedent 

when i was growing up 
it was all about the career and the fun 
nobody mentioned marriage or babies ! 

yet here i am saddled with a baby 
who is just one year younger than myself ... 

my womb complains
this is not what i signed up for ...