210917 

n the truth 
aint gonna cut it 
not this time 
if i could only find the right words 
i wouldn't have to lie to you 

210917 

hang on you're rushing me 
its alright for people who have partners 
and normal people at home 
im not the only one who doesnt understand 
n i can't shake this off 

i don't feel like doing anything
doing nothing 
sounds good to me 
watching the world go by 

can i have some of your light please 
your shining light 

180917 

the knot in my stomach 

feeling like a marionette 
making room for the pain 
the nerves, the shame ...
the suffering in your brain 

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so much darkness 
heartbroken 
alive 

150917 pm

at the mercy of the tides 
my liver n kidneys 

a turmoil of feelings 
he sounds so aggressive and demonic 
its burned  hole in my brain 

feel shaky and panicky 
shock, trauma, 
hard times ... 

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angry and frightened 

all passion scrubbed from my soul 
i just feel so drained 

i have no-one to talk to 
and no friends 

i don't even have 
the status of a slave ... 

scream as loud as you can, she said
as she thumped me in the back
and ran her finger
down my neck

you're stuck ...

she banged the door in my face
border clashes
i can hear them fighting
and slamming doors

im in shock
i cannot move
all the magic is gone

they will kick me out
and where will i go ?

stranded here
with a psychopath ...