E = MC squared :

technology equals master of ceremonies turned wally ! 

271017 / 281017 / 301017 

its lost its earthy hand - rubbing magic 

things are closing in on me 

i never asked to be born 

251017

this grief is like 
im gasping for air 
and end up breathing water 
so i choke 

shocked, invaded 

song : still taking the valium

still taking the valium
he sounds like someone is being murdered
he sounds like nothing on earth
i can feel it creeping up my spine

there are 2 rottweilers in there
barking their heads off

i know what they are going to say
that I'm up having a bath at 2 in the morning
i sometimes have a quick wash
and i think its a bit creepy
there is a couple next door
lying in bed listening to me having a wash

song : its all my fault

n i don't get no second chance 

feel so shaky 

with a sore and broken heart  

n I'm angry
with this abominable pain
I've lost control 

n i can't fix it
the silence is deafening me
the terror and emptiness
of being alone 

n its my fault
if things go wrong 

is this some sort of punishment ?

i feel so stupid
everybody else
seems to know what to do 

191017

and I've started composing a new tune on the piano
which started last night as i was asleep !
i woke up composing this thing
which i couldn't seem to pin down until later on
i don't remember having a dream like that before
someone from SLAA
said to write down your dreams
and also to relate them to what was happening the day before
i think if you take note of your dreams
and pay attention to them
they can become more lucid and vivid
with complex meanings and stories attached

161017 / 171017 

feeling shaky 

my broken heart 
is so sore 
n i don't get a second chance