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he wants me to befriend 
the junkie down the road 
who is also a nutter
just like me 

he used to date my friend 
and now i don't see an end 
no light in this tunnel

a tight space 
no room to squeeze 

i don't want to talk to him 

my nurse 
is mentally ill 

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and theres no escape 
from this heat 

i shoplifted again 
it was an accident 

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i felt this feeling 
i had to sit with it  

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its like you just reproduce
and thats all there is 
and your personality 
doesnt matter any more 

go away 
i don't want to talk to you 
i dont owe you anything 
leave me alone 
I've got enough of my own problems 

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like a bad fall 

going through the motions 
its like I've been hypnotised
i don't know how i feel 
i don't say
like I'm acting 
and I'm not aware that I'm acting 

then the next morning i think 
what was that ? 

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a feeling beyond fantasy 

drinking dirty water 

i was trying too hard 
and I was disloyal to my friends 

i didnt know i was flirting 

song : i jumped off a cliff to find my moon dust, original

please don't shy away from me 
I'm just like you 
i have to work at it 
the way you do 

n you have no idea 
i beg borrow and steal 
to save my family 
from their ordeal 

my dreams are fickle 
thats my moon dust 
to lose it all
to have it back 

technology 

has caught me out 

it just tears at my heart 

i jumped off a cliff 

cus i dont understand 
what they could see 
from the satellite 
cameras up there 

like a primitive
im cracking up  

n I'm sea sick
life has no meaning 
this biting hunger 
so cold inside 

rigid with shock 
traumatised 
shut out of the warmth 
starving for love 

he hasn't phoned 
tears are the rain 
that waters the garden 
the summer atmosphere 

technology 

has caught me out 

it just tears at my heart 

i jumped off a cliff