080818 

he's on a drug fuelled bender
and now its made me paranoid 
triggering flashbacks 
of being off the rails ...

my angry paranoid moods 

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its all gone horribly wrong 
this diluted life 
a breath of fresh air 
in a robotic world 

a crazed mental patient 
testing my sanity 
I've slipped 
he hasn't called 
i can't sleep, i feel so hungry 
if you don't reply to me this evening 
I'm going elsewhere 

i feel hurt and angry and rejected 
resentful, isolated, neglected

what am i an alcoholic psychiatric patient ? 
i don't seem to fit in 

maybe if i wore something less attractive 
its hardly sexually provocative 
hes not going to give up without a fight 

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i only send messages
by pigeon carrier 

i feel hurt and angry and rejected 

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its all gone horribly wrong 

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everybody trapped in the heat 
things coming to a head 

an army of trolls
drunk on caffeine 

the statue is weeping ... 

160718 

now the fib are following me 
onto YouTube 
and trolling my channel 
possibly monitoring my communications 

the reason being to do with Fritz 
and Trix , Trix's partner 
seems to be still in distress 
thinking I'm with Trix in some way 
i have not thought about him for ages 



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13.31 pm 

the fib are deleting mail from my gmail account 
and blocking communications in my online Al-Anon group 

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breaking down 

i dont trust myself 
i doubt my sanity