071018 

not sure if i benefitted from it 
and we ourselves deserved it 
or was it a form of slut shaming ? 

061018

im a bunny boiler 

i dreamed i lost 2 violins and 2 pairs of shoes 
it opened up a chest of demons 
like being striped naked
in front of other victims 

in broad daylight 

hung out to dry 
did someone plan this ?  

and i still depend on them 

061018

out on a limb 
we were silenced 
because the nurses 
wanted a celebrity on board 

how did that make me feel ? 
it was like a shared sexual experience 
i was opened up to it  

we were asked to make a sexual sound 
and we heard each other 

they were supposed to protect us  
so now where do we turn ? 

061018

rolling out, rolling over, bankrolled 

he's radicalised, 
so he terrorises me 
then i become radicalised as well 

i was raised by tigers
i don't know how to talk to people 
apart from a posh voice 

041018

i ended up after dark 
half naked in a public park 
looking for rats 

the police laughed at me 
they wanted to know if i was on medication 
and the name of his dealer 

and that i knew ...

031018 

it would have been in there for some days 

then i was living in a house 
where my brother was dealing heroin 

i put urine in the kettle 
to frighten them off 

the poisoner has no honour ... 

031018

the doctor laughed at me 

i needed it
to cope with my schizophrenic boyfriend 

i put on an act

so i decided to be mentally ill 
in order to claim more money