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n you're really lucky 
if its just porn 

my muse 
n this is just art 

word jam : purely fictional

having to beg, 
to gratefully accept 

spinning wool into gold 

my family members
are all barking 
n i might as well be Rahaf 

yeah a sense of entitlement 
to a lethal injection thats what 

I'm here to generate love 
is my purpose on earth 
i know no other goal 

its all about making your partner jealous 
because they seem to be withholding something 

actually to be honest 
im in love with more than one person 
let me see 
about three i think 

i lost my way 
n my foothold slipped 

n Scarey n I held our noses
n jumped
we knew it couldn't last 
with both of us quite insecure   

n you gotta be cool 
about da online porn 

n all resemblance 
to anyone living or dead 
is purely fictional

but Scarey will always have his quality time

n i was crying about him 
when the ambulance arrived 

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i lost my way 
n my foothold slipped 

n Scarey n I held our noses
n jumped
we knew it couldn't last 
with both of us quite insecure   

n you gotta be cool 
about da online porn 

n all resemblance 
to anyone living or dead 
is purely fictional

but Scarey will always have his quality time

n i was crying about him 
when the ambulance arrived 

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its all about making your partner jealous 
because they seem to be withholding something 

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actually to be honest 
im in love with more than one person 
let me see 
about three i think 

word jam : outta their skulls

the people who taught me 
were outta their skulls 
off their trolleys 
n outta their skulls 

so what else have i done wrong ? 
I've failed repeatedly 
layabout , scrounger 

when do you ever 
do anything for anybody else ? 

why can't you go to work ?  

took me weeks 
to win back the trust of his wife 

n who's to say 
it wasnt a Shamanic experience 

usually I'm in love with one person 
and theres something incredibly lustful 
going on elsewhere 
that breaks my own heart 
i broke it myself
it breaks my heart
i broke it myself  

sounds like a whole ball 
of fur feathers and blood 
you know like when an animal gets a bone 
and chews thoughtfully
for a bit first 
before tearing into it 

and you sort of paw at it mindlessly 
before tearing off a chunk 
so you've got two animals chewing each other 
chewing slowly with starey eyes 

we made each other weightless
floating in space 
with no goal 
in an altered state
bouncing off each others hands 
a web of bubbles  
passing through each other like ghosts 

the people who taught me 
were outta their skulls 
off their trolleys 
n outta their skulls 

020319   2 am 
in fact i had just accidentally bumped a chair 
and was worried about waking the neighbours