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baby mother targeted me with spam actors at the supermarket 

threatening my benefits and support groups 

and using chemical warfare 

she does not realise how conunter productive this is to her agenda even 

and how much it puts me off number 2 

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traditional shamans 

woud sometimes regard a persons psychotic episode 

and a spiritual epiphany and treat it as such 

with the aim to ' go through it with them ' 

 

 

 

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what does a cat say if you are not listening ? 

hear meowt ! 

mulled why 

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perfume was sprayed at me today 

on behalf of Nic and baby mother 

 

 

 

word jam : greek architecture

 gnashing my teeth
 
some couples have masochistic games going on
which goes all the way back to little Bo peep really

in recent years such people speak of a ' safe word '
which has not been enough explored I think

even in Victorian times it was considered
that a woman saying no was to be pursued for her hand in marriage
by her ardent suitor and he would wear her down

and I know many a Christian wife who was ' wooed ' in this way

because people sometimes are uncertain how they feel about it
they are exploring they haven't decided

also if they block you on social media put your
email into spam and say they want nothing to do with you
you can satisfy yourself they have moved on 



 

is classicism dead ? 



so I started off studying classical art and architecture 


then I met someone in my twenties who turned me right around 

I became this very lefty woke person new age kind of thing 



although the greek influences bring it together 


and I just noticed that I prefer Greek Architecture to Roman 


they were more into their aesthetics 



 

and even the language is changing 


from being mostly Latin influences with a bit of Greek and German 


and Celtic 



 

twitching muscles
 i feel like a helium balloon
 
ive seen you write really good classical poetry 
you wrote something of a Greek tragedy
when we split up before 

like myself I'm not gay but I'm very alternative
i like men with a sensitive side 

yes I think there is a lot of pressure for women to become lesbians
 And I get the impression there is some lobby somewhere
that thinks we could really kick the mens arses if we got together

like there was this friend I felt she had a crush on me ,
she would send me newspaper cuttings saying nasty things about men ,
and she would pick off my other friends and stuff so I stopped seeing her

noticing how I react to loud aggressive noises next door
re triggering the trauma
like my tummy is jumping about
 
and check out my new fragrance for men ... Hay Barn !
ten minutes
 
is that really your post ?
i meant posted as in the military 
this disgusting sweat
i banged myself
the neighbour doesnt like it
someone of my age ...

i would be traumatised  !
i show him how haughty i am
and then he puts me in my place
like Lady Chatterley

n im like literally dying

the author is planning working on a bandwagon tonight
through manipulating the churches
 
your willingness to help someone
should not depend on whether im going to have sex with you !
thats coercion
 
I have struggled with this as well 


I think therapists recommend something like 


' taking sex off the table ' yes I know it sounds funny 



but seriously it involves having other kinds of intimacy 

with your partner 
including cuddling , 

but forbidding yourselves to have sex 
for a period of time
 
enjoyed watching you play
use that to play with me
he wants me to think about him
while i play 
 
it reached up to the sternum bone 

i feel so alive
 
 

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the cam girl says i can do some real life shiz 

with my boyfriends 

well thats one way to study classical art i suppose ! 

 

 

 

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the cam girl has started targeting me with spam actors as of today