1925

I'm with Davision 

i do not condone your plans to torture him 

2pm 

we are just not family units any more 

how do you start to re-define the family 

in modern terms

i am still close to my dads ex who has remarried for instance 

or take the sitcom 'Melissa and Joey' 

for some interesting new role models 

221114

i spent about 15 minutes a week on sexual activity. 

I spent alot of time thinking about it 

like its taking over again. 

I feel I'm back in my addiction. 

It reminds me they used to say not to do that 

before a football match 

drama

181114 

i thought i was babbling a bit 

i told myself to shut up

it was like watching Hollyoaks - oi what do you think your doing ? 

what are you looking at

can you take a step back please i have never seen you before 

do i know you from somewhere ? 

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I don't really want to do the decorating 

i feel I'm being told what to do 

or you could say why are you nagging me , like men do 

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if I'm not in a strong space , people , family friends 

can get me to do things i don't really want to

it was difficult to say that the nurse tickled me, 

they might think i made it up 

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this is just pretend, so you can like pretend a bit more

than you normally would

rehab

171114

i was able to stop eating cake 

because of the miracle 

letting the programme work through you 

and letting go 

rehab ... new series !

151114 4pm

recovered enough 

to put a cat among the pigeons 

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a meeting gives you a break from worldly things 



161114 

a new vein 

that chimes with being silly 

silly is the new sick 

dear Pa

those treehouse memories

reminded me how wondrous you were to me as a child

like Christmas every day

there was a kind of muddy smell

when you came in from the cold

men smell like that sometimes. 

As if they've just come from the football pitch

how much fun we had and what great friends we were too


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