paragliding

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who says men age better than women ! 
my depression made me do it 
better than jumping out of a window ! 

n i never asked to be here 

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brace yourself 
for the trauma 
and the PTSD


we jumped off a very steep slope 
the ridge looked like a precipice 

theyre closing in on me 

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i never signed up for this life 
n i used my anger as well 
Ill never come back down
i feel like i just came back from a war 


kind of masochistic 

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my body taut 
the height of stress and tension 
theres more chance 
with a harness and an instructor on board 

paragliding ballet

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the suspense is killing me 
the tension of the string 
and so we're kicking off 

turning in to the wind 
lean to the left, lean to the right,
sit back and enjoy the ride 
attuned to the current 

stamping the turf
n the wind's too light, 
n the wind's too strong 

standing my ground 

paragliding

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swept off my feet 
catching the breeze
in love with the adrenalin 

surrounded ... 
the tug of the ropes
a powerful force pulling backwards
senses hightened 

excited like a child 
even with classical music  

and they mustn't collide ... 

paragliding

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the sheer torture of that moment 
i keep re-living the horror ... 

I felt like i was on a broomstick 
in a Harry Potter film !

theres a kind of scuffle
like a rugby scrum
as you try to take off
i went unplugged
so i could experience the ride
the fear was excruciating
a magical feeling

i prayed to the Hindu god of wind
my auntie says that's evil ...

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this grinding lump of pain 

theres a knife 

twisting in my stomach 

I am a broken soul 
a massive great scar
n a gaping hole 

would you use toilet paper though
if you were on someones private site ?
or would you just - er - lump it !

not sure what is the dung thing 

he's in there now  
kicking shit
going Im retarded 
and you're talking to me 
like I'm a cunt