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I'm always being watched 
it drove me crazy
n i was banged up for it 
slammed up in a mental hospital 

they hold you down 
pull your pants down 
and inject you with some utter crap 

then i got lockjaw 
and was dribbling at the mouth 
unable to speak 

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it fits like a glove 
just to feel connected 
to warm my darkest hours 

bitter, hand-wringing remorse 
this morbid pathology 

talking to damaged people 
this morphine like bliss 

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you need to get that rock star out 
before it kills you 

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the walking wounded 

i don't feel at home anywhere 
and my stomach is nervous 
jittery and unstable 

the machines are broken down 
and so am i 

there are no more machines 

shock and paralysis 

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it blew my fuse 

so ... what have you been doing ? ! 
my mind has gone walkies
i just couldn't think of anything to say 

the thread of trust is easily broken 
n this is my pathology 

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I'm just like a dead body myself 
a hollow empty space 

this life is torture

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I've let my mother down 
and now I've let my brother down too 

n when i was a child 
i had a dream about a monster 
who took them away in a boat 
the boat departed from the cellar 

n i still don't understand 
surely it was my fault 

he found her dead in her bedroom 
n i wasnt there 

triggering 
his nightmare becomes mine 
and his day mare 

I've let everyone down 
n now i need help