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anxiety can begin so innocently you notice someone in the
front row tapping his feet. You wonder to yourself whether you're really
maintaining a steady rhythm. Then someone else whispers something to her
neighbor, and you worry that perhaps your hair is disheveled or your tie is
crooked, you look plump or maybe you're making those funny grimaces again that you thought
you'd conquered. Worse they are probably discussing how weird or
inauspicious your interpretation is, or they are commenting on the discords

Oh, your therapist is really
going to yell at you
Your hands are shaking or sweaty or clammy. Maybe you're
not cut out for this stuff after all...

Do not judge what just happened or is about to happen. Self-judgment during a
performance is pointless because it takes you out of the moment
it introduces a verbal aspect into
an activity that is most successful when it is non-verbal. Reserve judgment for
after the performance, preferably after you have listened to other people's
reviews and critiques

When you are about to make a crescendo, for
example, intend to do it and then feel it as you are doing it. There is nothing
verbal about this process

truly remarkable what paranoid ingenuity most of us generate during
performance in order to slaughter ourselves

the neck muscles contract, bringing the head down and shoulders up, while the back muscles draw the spine into a concave curve. This, in turn, pushes the pelvis forward and pulls the the body into a classic fetal position

fight and flight for the toughest attacks ...

anxiety usually has physical symptoms that may include a racing heart, a dry mouth, a shaky voice, blushing, trembling, sweating, and nausea

the circuit in my head registered an illegal operation
Stop jerking me around succus
that freakin nut job had the world by the balls

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