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being in a  constant state of shock and concussion 
and too out of it to have to deal with anything 
and that gratuitous physical selfishness 
of being very young mindless 
rutting thing ... and the 
music ... this busker
called Bruno was 
there when he was arrested 
and they wouldn't let me in the car 
... and his music an expression  of the pain 




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and then the triller stuff trying to escape the locked 
door and running away and getting strangers 
to help you and stuff ... and yeah 
sitting in doorways with 
homeless people 
buying you tea 


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thing about violence is 
obviously the adrenaline for 
one thing ... and this poetic feeling 
of despair and utter hopelessness you know 
when you're sitting on the floor in the middle of 
Victoria Station at 5 in the morning and the birds are 
coming up ... screaming with laughter at the hopelessness 
of it and the loss of self is very trippy and orgasmic feeling of
pure emotion being shocked and blasted off the face of the earth







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the word Victoria keeps coming up today in various places