jupitersterrain four

2.59am 

n then i find Scarey I'm just there n ill think about 
someone else an not always the same person 
jus i mus be running away in my mind
cus of being attack and stuff 

like with Loz that didn't bother me cus the 
superbowl was kind of fun 
an now it isn't  

well not unless its the camping festival 
is suppose to be later isn't it 

thanks for the awesome articles ... Scarey 
i do love you what to do i feel fucked 
up in the had 

maybe cus not being allow to meet you start
looking around in your head isn't it 
and then I'm not allowed to meet anyone at all ... 

n i reallly rally miss Scarey and want to cuddle him  
an get that razor glade thing 

n im so behind with reading your stuff n other 
people stuff an now i got flu too 
i c ant hardly move as well 

n Scarey all get bored and think its my fault 





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supose you could always have a second half hour as long 

as you get up and move isn't it 

rather than wanging the guitar to death 




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n I'm only just starting to feel frustrated 
its like some of those feelings were 
satisfying in themselves 

like music i lost a sense of beginning or end 
just something to fear 






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a couple of weaks 
an the hollow look has gone from the eyes 

00.38



um yeah something did happen there 
and not all the way down 

its doing something different 
an i don't always know what is going on 
an i don't need to know 

one of those cellar things thas difficult to open