jupitersterrain four

so yeah you kind of revel in being different 
and ven in being cast out isn't it 

like well at least I'm not with the herd 

i got a taste for this concept after someone 
arranged for us to go and squat 
near the Angel tube ... 

a most beautiful squat in a delicate 
georian building i actually fell in love with 
and that was it suddenly we were 
different and i have never been the same again 

and you'd do anything as long as it 
was not sameness 

ana wed be children and wed be five year olds 
an tribal people 

an exploring stuff like cosmic energy 
and jamming into the small hours 
my brother said the small hours are a magical 
time and you never recover from 
that discovery 

an wed all sing together 
mostly African songs i think 
and yeah of course there was the revolution 
and there was because we were very 
aware ... 

which the grown up thought 
was a joke 
and it wasn't cus we did some stuff 
to do with awareness of other people  

an there was the straight edge movement 
kind of running parallel to the drugs
you know the adult child emo kid 
wave was very strong 

and alot of 
research we forged into communication 
i mean there are little subtleies that 
can get lost in a normal life 

like laughing at your own jokes
as i was saying this was a heinous 
crime in those days ... 

absolute clanger 
the mark of the uncool ... 
and now even Jack Dee and Stuart Lee 
can't seem to keep the corners 
from curling 





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an I'm still processing 
that chapter 

which is about all different ways 
to feel cast out 
shut out different misfit etc 

which looks like a racial thing 
and you can get that without being racial too 
in fact you are more secure than me 
in some ways ... 







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