i knew i was alright

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reminds me my mothers brother 

use to go missing as a child 

in the woods n stuff n he'd say well i knew i was alright 




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n i can't keep up with myself now 

n stuff is going missing 

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n seriously shall i wallpaper the room with slums 

like Calcutta slums n people smoking bongs n stuff ... 

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n that reminds me 

my first experience of racism was 'paki jokes' i think 

this was a London suburb 

of a sort of baptist church squeaky hymns variety 

n you'd join in with them 

not very much but just without thinking about it 

an you do your head going side to side 

n going oh dear dear 

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n that does hurt 

as i have a thing about India