jupitersterrain four

110415 4pm 

my relationship 

is like an emotional chess game

this time i don't feel abandoned or traumatised 

just people seem to think I'm stronger than i am ... 

how do you incorporate your fantasies about other people 

into a committed relationship ? 

are you really not going to act out at all ? 

we can't meet at the moment 

because of the position I'm in and the position he is in 

it wouldn't be appropriate 

I guess some people would call this an imaginary friend ... 




I felt i had a positive experience with my sexuality this week 

and this led to feelings of utter utter terror ... 

as if people would attack me for feeling good about myself ...