sorry if i havent always learned to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
as you know i am not always very well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ...
Im hoping we will go for a coffee sometime with your son
maybe when i am feeling up to it
i will let you know
all the best with your mysterious journey in life
I couldn't pretend to understand you
and with age i realise more how little i know
and i always do love you
you matter very much to me and i don't want to lose you ...
that would cause me unbearable pain
love from Liz and Myra "
"I don't always know how to respect your wild and beautiful spirit
and i am not always well myself
especially just now they are trying to take me off the lorazepam .
Sometimes i don't have anything to give ... "
I sometimes feel jealous of him
like he's a really cool musician for instance
and very expressive with his feelings
very 'present' with other people
very funny , that sort of thing, life and soul of the party ...
I don't know, its a bit of step 4
sometimes i feel like I'm jealous of him
and then i patronise him as though i am superior
im a bit confused about this at the moment
because there are so many sick people in my life
that sometimes i have to patronise people
or ignore them, or give some indication that they are invading my space ...
ps very deeply ingrained conditioning this ...
like growing up in an all white community in London
you know, where i was a high flyer
i have a built in sense of superiority
coupled with a feeling of worthlessness
that comes from not understanding your true values ... lif
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