jupitersterrain four

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I would also choose the Tango ride

over a rollercoaster ...




23.44


in NA literature

they cite that you have to be willing to let go of

your playground and playmates

that go with your using ...

I am aware that i have playground and playmates

that accompany my use of medication and food.

I am not currently willing to let go of these toys

but i hereby ask my Higher Power for the willingness to change.



I did make this change before and i relapsed

which is possibly why i am afraid to set sail a second time.

My medication is currently compulsory

although that might change if i were able to extricate myself from the system ...