taking it out ... on 

something has to not work

in order for somehting else to work 

starting new tapestry kits 

when you ahve unfinished business with the old ones ... 

a song for my brother ...

 I make sense of this pain

030416 

he took too much heroin

an overdose they said

now on the mend

am i losing him ... my childhood friend ...  

 ***********

the baby girl

has planted a new song ... 

020416

I poured my soul out to him

as a present 

my precious ...  


 ****************

 they said go and give him the love he needs 

we're all with you ... 


310316    18.00


I felt him

beating next to mine 

he said he wanted to hug me 

heart to heart 

writhing in pain 

it squirms to meet the new day ... 

300316

he wanted to hug me 

heart to heart ... 

290316 

my heart squirms to greet the day ... 

 
Ben Simpson8 hours agoLINKED COMMENT
You're such a beautiful soul, you keep getting back up even after your family continue to not treat you properly. I find it astonishing that they can't even give you 1 call after you've been to see your brother which obviously can be quite an unusual and possibly even dangerous social interaction. You're making all the right moves though, it's your aunt and your dad that need to step up. They need to be there for you and your brother more than they are especially given the situation. I can't emphasise enough how supportive I and the rest of your subscribers are of you, you deserve every lovely comment you get. Keep pushing forward and you'll get there eventually x
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Ben Simpson
thankyou thats really helpful
i think they are in denial about what they are doing x
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Jeenfall11 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
you are more mature than those two together....just go and see your brother on your own, and give him the love he needs right now... I think your dad is not acting really well about it
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jeenfall
thankyou thats really helpful
it would be a shame to waste the visit feeling resentful ...
i will let myself feel resentful afterwards !
have a good night x
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Jeenfall6 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
stay strong! you are the best, honestly. Maybe they´ll not call after it, but at least you know you are the best sister for visit him
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the pedophile next door 

ruined my evening with his noisy dog ... 

23.51

the truth ? 

he was an anarchist 

but then he got older 

and realized that arse-licking was more profitable ha ha ! 

and all their lucrative jobs 

and top notch partners and stuff ... 

hey i sound just like my mum ...

00.37

my relatives

expect me to visit the addict 

because another suicide 

might bring shame on the family ... 

LathspellChan22 minutes ago
Maybe you should try to ask your auntie to be direct with you and not just drop hints? It might not always be pleasant, but you're right - it's better when people are direct. Hope you two can work this out soon x
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MrKatyia14 minutes ago
+LathspellChan
thankyo i have tried that
and she just dodges as if she is a brilliant baseballer !
i need to really keep my cool to get anywhere with the truth !
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LathspellChan1 minute ago
+MrKatyia You can do it! :)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+LathspellChan
n yeah cus when you feel insecure and frightened
and start lashing out , there is no peace ...




MrKatyia9 minutes ago
+LaSweet Zuniga
or you mean i don't need to be catty !
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MrKatyia8 minutes ago
+MrKatyia
MrKatyia learning not to be nasty ...
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LaSweet Zuniga3 minutes ago
+MrKatyia  no nooo noooo
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LaSweet Zuniga3 minutes ago
+MrKatyia do NOT be Nasty... see, how can i explain my self
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Gonzalo Hansen3 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
do not limit your life to sadness, leading your life to love :)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Gonzalo Hansen
Im working on it
like going up a huge mountain thanks ...
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Gonzalo Hansen
the highest mountain in the world can be scaled. In the future you will be the best climber :)

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JAMiE DC7 hours agoLINKED COMMENT
its heart breaking how unfair a government can be, cant believe it, wish I could help... please dont do anything that may be bazardous for you
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+JAMiE DC
thanks, yes it does cross my mind
but i will speak to someone about it.
you are very intuitive

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Jeenfall18 seconds ago
Of course you are, I knew it The moment I heard your videos 
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jeenfall
thanks I'm really struggling at the moment
and you are helping to make sense of it

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You look very nice in this video! You'll be right as rain in no time, just get through this rough patch! :)

 MrKatyia25 minutes ago
+Jeenfall
there are several campaigns going on
i have just about had enough !
its not wat i want to be doing in life !

Jeenfall6 minutes ago
Yes i know! But, I think all Of this is going to be good for something, just wait you will see
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jeenfall
ok maybe it will be !

MrKatyia1 second ago
+MrKatyia
I suppose one thing
is that i am a rally good campaigner ...
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Jack™7 minutes ago
+MrKatyia
What if you told your doctor that you don't have the energy to collect all those papers and to talk with all those people. He may be able to set you up with someone who can do those things for you. If he's already going to set you up with someone to help out with your housework, he obviously believes that you don't have a lot of energy - right? 
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jack™
thanks, i think that is his plan in the long run.
but currently i don't have that person.
and nobody can really collect these details apart from me ...
eg bank details , reports about my health,
a diary of my health,
are things that are required, , the address of the GP for instance.
i will have to gather this data myself. Probably on Wednesday
when i was hoping to do some painting.
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Jack™20 minutes ago
+MrKatyia
Don't they have to review those kind of things once in a while?
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jack™
they do. My support worker thinks it should be ok
as i am on a compulsory treatment order.
i just find the assessments really upsetting
because it makes you focus on your problems ...
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Jack™14 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
What are you doing today?
I've only got a few things to do... Looks like an easy day. -;)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jack™
hi Jack i am pleased for you.
I am having a bit of a rough time, i feel at the moment.
they are assessing my claim for assistance
and i can't get help iwht the form
until after the deadline
so i am worried about it
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 hi - - - - - - -  i  indicated there was no reciprocity

and you are now harrassing me

he probably has an SM mindset though ... 

xx

LaSweet Zuniga29 minutes ago
+MrKatyia cool.. i know everything is crazy on priceses.. keep in touch and i am wating for a song you are really good at it.. and you dont know but when you sing you smile. <3
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+LaSweet Zuniga
wow thankyou you are so supportive !

MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jack™
thanks again, its nice of you to give me this attention ...
i can't see it somehow
it sounds like a sinful temptation !
back int he day we used to call it
mixing business with pleasure ...
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+MrKatyia
We have ways of getting more views. :-)
In any case, give it some thought and let me know what you come up with.

Love yea
- Jack

 
Jack™4 hours agoLINKED COMMENT
Hi MrKatyia,

For every 1000 views you earn about $1.00 US.
You don't ask people for money or anything like that... YouTube simply runs advertisement videos and shares the profit with you. I could help you setup your account with them. Let me know what you think... I'd be more then happy to help you out.

Love yea
- Jack :-)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jack™
thanks Jack i will think about it
but probably i can't do that
i am on here getting support from my friends not making money
Love you back ...
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+MrKatyia
also i think that would be about $2 per day , which is like £1
so i am really not that famous !
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LaSweet Zuniga
+MrKatyia you are really good on making songs... And to been honest even if you smile or dont ... As long you have a song in your heart.

 
DOGE_Gameplays - Agar.io,Minecraft,Happy Wheels Y Más10 hours agoLINKED COMMENT
Your Happiness is Great!Come On Katyia You're a CHAMPION!!!
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+DOGE_Gameplays - Agar.io,Minecraft,Happy Wheels Y Más
wow thanks very much

I need PIP In order to attend social events that are good for my mental health
and in which i also help out. I would become isolated and unwell if i didnt have the money
and at risk of going back into hospital ...

i have to pay for my therapy and for alternative therapies
phone calls, transport etc to make contact with others

cuts to services for people with disabilities
what effec that is going to have on me
transport to rehab groups, lunch ,

ME

it takes me 3 hours to get ready in the morning
it has been like that for years and i don't know why
huge energy bills
i don't have money for clothes or CDs
i would get very isolated
psychiatrist support
i have been ill for 30 years, I'm hardly going to just walk into a job
I am responsible for big repair bills, like £70 per plumbing job
and don't want to make myself intentionally homeless …
there are not alot of council houses

i don't have the energy to work all day
i don't have any way of earning money
i am hardly likely to walk into a job after being ill for 30 years.
if had more counselling to begin with maybe i would be better and able to work  ,,, 

 
Eduardo daniel3 hours ago
I know about you
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline thanks Jack
no i don't really understand.
You want good things to happen for me that is true
i don't like organised religions though
apart from sometimes ancient texts like from Hinduism and stuff
i would not go to a church or a mosque or anything like that
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Jorge Salinas (Arthas)5 hours agoLINKED COMMENT
Your voice.... its beautiful, its like balm on my soul..... sing more please.... it helps me to cry and clean my sadness
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jorge Salinas (Arthas)
thankyou , i hope you will feel better soon
I'm pleased if my videos can help you to cry
there are alot of crying ones
hugs back
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline

thanks, i enjoy getting your replies ...
i think its normal that sometimes we don't believe in God any more
because life has been too painful
i think everyone gets this at times.
i would like to believe that things will work out for me.
maybe i have rained so much as to cause a flood !
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@myqkaplan
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my friend is 91 ... 

ive never seen her so alive ...

she laughs and cries

and asks for more food ...

She said next time she would like 

a bottle of ginger wine and a bunch of bananas ! 

Mummy was losing her little baby girl
the warmth of Mummys heart
and how she loved her baby ... 

 
Emilio Toro9 minutes ago
Oooookay, i'm crying now...
Don't be sad, my dear Katyia! Your Mummy is in your heart, and she never will die there...
Love from... Chile and Latinoamérica...
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LaSweet Zuniga10 minutes ago
omg.... you are so brilliant .. i am very sure you mommy love the song. :D
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Kat Martin20169 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
Dear Katyia, it is wise of you to be on guard for him attempting to get money. I know he is your brother, but I am sure you know how drugs can make a person do anything to get more...including deceiving the ones they love. Get help from your family to deal with this. You need to have family help, and he will need professional help. You have made so much progress (even smiling woo hoo!) and don't let anyone or anything take that smile away again. You cannot do it alone and you must concentrate on staying healthy yourself. You have a lot of people who care, and I hope you will not let this bring you down. Stay strong!
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Did you know that your voice is getting stronger with every video? Keep it up! Let your spirit pour out of you...it's great to see you like this Katyia!

+Jeenfall
thankyou , i have now sent an email to his son.
you also have given me an insight into how this numbness prevents us from acting
i am very grateful
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+MrKatyia
in fact if we look at it
the nosebleed must have happened for this reason ...
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+MrKatyia  you should keep trying, we believe in you
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+JAMiE DC
thankyou i will do my best to see a doctor tomorrow ...
i am getting so much support from YOuTube its really amazing
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TheGato Anakin
:D you have all my support and love :D

Jeenfall2 minutes ago
+MrKatyia yes maybe contacting his son is a good idea... you can do it, and remember god is always with you !
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jeenfall
thankyou , i have now sent an email to his son.
you also have given me an insight into how this numbness prevents us from acting
i am very grateful

 
Jeenfall36 seconds agoLINKED COMMENT
well... maybe you and your brother have to look out for each other , share some love
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Jeenfall
thankyou i was thinking about that.
its difficult to see him on my own
because he starts trying to get money ...
and my other family are busy at the moment
so i don't know what to do ...
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Bunny Hat (太公望)2 hours ago (edited)LINKED COMMENT
Hi MrKatyia! I also speak Spanish, but I'm very sorry about what happened with some of the comments from the people who speak my language... People can be too abusive sometimes, but it's them who are bitter, angry with life or who knows what, who have an emptiness in their hearts, and who try to release themselves from their own load by making others feel bad. I think it's them we should feel sad about!

I know it must be very hard sometimes and that it's not easy for others to understand how you feel...  I remember how bad it felt when my father passed away from an accident when I was a kid, and when my grandparents, who were like my second parents to me, passed away due to their age... I remember how hard it was to overcome, how many years it took... I don't think I've surpassed those feelings completely even today yet, but now I try to embrace all my feelings, including sadness, and I think it's the best way for me to let go and not be overcome by them. Because I've experienced how worse it can be if we leave this sadness hidden inside of us... Someone told me once that we should never hide our feelings inside, but I didn't hear at the beginning. This person also told me that we only have one human experience, and that we shouldn't reject our feelings, but live them through. Having both happiness and sadness is part of our experience on this world after all.

I have a feeling that you're a great and wonderful person, and I sincerely wish you many blessings and that you feel better soon.
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Bunny Hat (太公望)
thankyou i enjoyed having your reply
i think crying is important too

 
MrKatyia1 second ago
I have never seen such people in this world ! x
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LaSweet Zuniga1 minute agoLINKED COMMENT
<3 mmmm lalalalalal laaaaa lalalaaa ... :* <3
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Camila Mancini1 minute ago
Esta mujer es muy linda
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Julio Albornoz1 minute ago
a love Mr katia you admired
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Camila Mancini2 minutes ago
<3
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Luis Santiago Pulido garza2 minutes ago
Qué lindo video
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lizeth carolina Perez tamez
no llore mas si es por una persona que la hizo sentir mal modelos mucho a chingar su mAdre y ignore ala gente al cabo es una muerda animo

blocked ... that is Dev's ex ... 

Fati Battistin13 minutes ago
+MrKatyia the world dont deserve angels like your mother, she is in a beautiful place helping you with yours decisions, love ya
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Fati Battistin
thankyou that is a beautiful answer that i do understand
why some people die young yes that is true ... x
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giovanni grez
jajaja el oscar no era para dicaprio era para ella

a song for Mummy

its a beautiful sunny morning and Mummy is dead

i cried until i bled …


one day i will go to heaven and knock on Mummys door ...

give Mummy a big squeeze ...
and we cling to each other crying

I would like to look after my Mummy
feed her and put her to bed ...
what a magnificent Mummy she is ...



I forgive you Mummy, i just want a cuddle ...

Mummy is crying too ...

goodbye mummy i love you , hugs

i never said goodbye to the beautiful mummy
who raised me as a baby

I felt as though Mummy was close to me , i felt her arms around me
and she kissed my head ...

tears are the rain
that waters the garden ...


that making the flowers grow

 
Mr.X2 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
I sure that your mom liked your song to her.
I hope you are feeling better since Drossrotzank madr you famous.
❤
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Mr.X
thankyou , i hope she likes it
i am not really famous.
famous people have millions of followers ...
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te perdono mami, solo quiero acariciarte...

00.59 am 

I forgive you Mummy 

i just want a cuddle ... xxxxxxxx

21.51

I am still having alot of trouble with my broadband connection 

having to re-start the router, and sometimes the computer as well ... 

is it the FIB that are doing this ? 

   
JAMiE DC
+MrKatyia mommy loves you and you should be proud of yourself! you are beautiful!





 
Dan Rodriguez10 minutes agoLINKED COMMENT
I found this and I wanted to share with you..."No amount of guilt can change the past, and no amount of anxiety can change the future".

Ps. I really like to see you smiling and/or dancing, but if you want to cry it's ok, we're still going to be here supporting you.
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Primera vez que veo que los fans de Dross logran algo único, que una mujer se esté recuperando de su Depresión.

Leave A Msg User Is Offline3 hours ago
Hello MrKatyia,

Please, don't fight it... Things are going to get better from now on... I meet a man (From Heaven several years ago) who told me that He would help you... Things are going to get a lot better for you sweetheart.  As a matter of fact, in a few months from now, you'll look back in amazement... I understand you're confusion or disbelief, but none of that matters... You are going to get well. :-)

Yes, YOU!
You are going to be free!

You are going to be well. :-)

Mark this day... Make a video... In a few months from now, you'll be singing a new song.

Come what may, you can't fight it... Its going to happen.

Mark my words!

It's already been done... You don't have to do anything... Its already been done!


I would like to explain what's going on but you're not ready yet.
Just go with the flow... You're in good hands...

Nothing can stop this from happening...

You are going to be well. :-)

Don't fight Him.
Let Him heal you.

Your servant
- Jack
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline
thanks very much, that sounds amazing.
You are not my servant Jack you are my friend ...
i hope you enjoy your day x
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+Gretchen Camacho what an asshole

she has been blocked ...

Regular Artist2 minutes ago
aw...go see a doctor if you need one (if i have any mistakes,sorry,im jappanese -3-)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Regular Artist
I already see a doctor
they cannot help with something like this
thanks for your comment


JAMiE DC1 minute ago
come on! spread your wings and go on with life!
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+JAMiE DC
thanks for the encouragement ...

pide ayuda a Dross,que yo también vine por él

   
kuigiboro

mrkatyia tengo una pregunta para ti, si te quedara un ultimo dia de vida, como lo vivirias??

If! And poor lady watching those videos that are not fit for human mind, as they are a copy of Mk Ultra Project, will get only get worse and has other videos as well, it is clear that

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+MrKatyia you're incredible MrKatyia, so much love for u from El Salvador. You have amazing eyes and smile, keep the good feeling.

1.20am 

i wonder if a nose bleed 

can be caused by stress ? 

Leave A Msg User Is Offline46 seconds agoLINKED COMMENT
Sometimes the heating is dry and can cause you're noise to bleed.
You may want to look into getting an humidifier.
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline
thankyou Jack and everyone
its nice of you to be there for me.
i read the health service website
and i think its stopping now
except you are supposed to avoid lying down
so i don't know how i am going to sleep
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MrKatyia1 second ago
thankyou for your kind comments
i am scared there might be something serious.
MrKatyia does not like hospitals ...
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nb i am having alot of problems with broadband recent few days 

and wonder where this interference might be coming from ... 

 070316     am

las lágrimas son la lluvia
que riega mi jardín ...

21.56

as i was saying recently 

i no longer believe that i am with Dev 

i would still choose Dev if i thought that was real 

but i dont 

the connection seems to have broken 

at the same time i got all this response from Chile 

thankyou Dross
you could do something on self harm perhaps
its helpful you are publicising peoples mental health issues for us

all the best Love MrKatyia

MrKatyia1 second ago
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thankyou for your beautiful comments
i have never seen so much love ...
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Mandy Strange2 hours ago
No please don't be sad you're amazing person :(
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Florencia Crespo2 hours ago
Dont cry, we want see you happy!!
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USHER IN LINE3 hours ago
You 're a great person and it shows in your eyes if you think nobody wants god loves you
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Evktax Willowfield3 hours ago
stay strong!!

you're amazing :)

    
Arturo Perez

I do not cry beautiful Spain this with you oysters

Candelaria Rosas 9 hours ago  · Shared privately
Hi MrKatyia, I'm Giovanna and I live in Argentina.
I hope to do very long this message:
I spend time at home and the people with I talk are from Internet , so I can tell you that I am quite alone. I live with my sister in a city of Buenos Aires, I like the music, films and literature.
I not yet finished school because I'm embarrassed to go.
I'm thinking of visiting an nursing homes, the truth is that they are quite alone.
I'd love to meet you in person (as in the movies haha) because I feel that you're adorable.
I would also like to send you a message regularly (only if you like (obviusly)), even though my English is bad, I hope you can understand some of this. I hope also this message is not suffocating because I think too many people talk with you every day.

Giovanna . xoxo
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MrKatyia 1 second ago
+Candelaria Rosas
thanks for your lovely message.
You are too young to be chatting with me
i will read your comments on the video


all the best MrKatyia
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Leave A Msg User Is Offline3 hours ago
Hi MrKatyia,

I can see that we share a love for art... Who would you say is you're favorite artists?
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline
oh hi Jack how are you doing !
im not very knowledgeable that way
but i like Picasso, Braque, Salvador Dali,
and then there is Boticelli, and the pre raphaelites
probably more
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MrKatyia1 second ago
thanks for the comments
you are helping with my confidence.
i am learning quite alot of Spanish too !
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Xiomara Maldonado
ok PEOPLE at this point I don't think this is depressing, I think this is STUPID so let this famous stupid and depressing woman die maybe that makes her happy, let her cry, let her be depressing, let

19.15

I had to clear a bug from my computer ... 

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LaSweet Zuniga
woooowww ... hahah she is creepy . i know she is happy but she has a weird happy face

 
MrKatyia1 second ago
you people are incredible !
a group hug for everyone ... XXX
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Lan Scott38 minutes ago
you smile is beatiful !!! c:
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Bäkå Colörfûl41 minutes ago
I really love to see you smiling!!!!!  ≧◡≦(❁´◡`❁)✲
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BrillzX41 minutes ago
You're a beautiful woman!
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Matias Prinzi52 minutes ago
Thanks you!! Beautiful woman!!
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MrKatyia1 second ago
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hi Jack
you look very angry
and alot smarter than i thought ...
Love MrKatyia
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Over 100 and 80 stupid people have subscribed to this channel.
You could be next.
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drama class

260216    2.30pm

we want to go to a party tonight at 10 oclock 

on a schoolnight ? 

yes i need £5 for a bottle of coke. 

coke doesnt cost £5

im sick of you trying to control me
i wont do my homework for a week. 

well we will get the school to punish you then

yeah and what can they do ? 

youre going to bed

we are not we are going to climb out the window ... 

12.30pm   020316 

something wierd is happening

its raining and the stars are out ... 

Es una hermosa mañana de domingo, mami esta muerta... no me la merezco. gracias por escuchar.

 
Leave A Msg User Is Offline1 hour ago
+MrKatyia
Yeap, online friends are the best... You can turn them off by a simply touch of the key and you can always delete whatever they say that offended you. Wish all friends were like that. :-)
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MrKatyia1 second ago
+Leave A Msg User Is Offline
um yeah , like when you meet people in real life
they more likely get on each others nerves ... !
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