rap song : Evil Pink Star

yes i did !

complete fabrication
but enjoying the fantasy

so that was it
a few hours and its over

nothing

trying to escape this sticky goo
sucking me back in
like quicksand

n I've fabricated the whole thing
too much internet

how awful it is being in love
maybe I'm just having a psychotic episode
certainly feels manic
i miss being manic

Fritz has no chii

oh look she's fallen for it
she thinks its him
what an idiot !

completely enmeshed, crushed
relationships can be boring sometimes
and what about you ?
i know nothing about you ...

smarmy
i can't do it
i am incapable of being myself
around a lover
hopeless cause ...

n now there is the evil pink star
on the horizon

actually yes I'm really committed
to our lack of commitment

anyway i have some bad news
i weigh 15 stone 2
persistent aggressive threatening menacing
like fingernails down a blackboard

instead of a honeymoon
i need to be always vigilant
lest i become a clone of the other person

withdrawal symptoms, cold turkey
clucking for sugar
n this triggers my paranoia
n then i get into arguments
no sugar, no sparkle
all beaten black and blue inside
i get really depressed

like I've got no back bone
investing all my feelings
in a non existent relationship
n im not being myself
this contagious poison
a pit in my stomach














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yes i did !
complete fabrication
but enjoying the fantasy

so that was it
a few hours and its over
nothing