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Friday, 26 August 2016

hospital camp , new book ,

the searing pain in my hip
when they try to roll me over


260816 10.05 am

the door is slammed shut ...
Im in a high security unit
surrounded by people who have just tried to kill themselves.
They are very angry .

My bags and pockets are searched
for medications, and implements, and even plastic bags
which are not allowed on the wards ...

i watch people make further attempts in there
one lady tried to strangle herself with a tourniquet

The heating doesnt work
it comes on in Summer and goes off in winter
and my bedroom smells of ammonia ...

091213

mustard soya milk blackcurrant milk shake dog rose tea

irish pizza n suddenly she was a football pitch with people running about on her

pillowcase

from late 2013

i like the way those feelings flow, his hands inside my soul pulling at the branches shaking the leaves that massage the feelings like a ripe fruit sharing the juice ... a cocktail where we finally found our differences ...


071213 830pm

my tongue hanging out feel vey sick ... n plunge into the ventilator the emergency team arrive n you feel the love of strong hands rolling you over onto the stretcher a blanket of bliss screaming in agony

two songs were playing in my head ... concussion strapped in tight the vehicle rattling away into the night like that gypsy move at 5 years old a tunnel to nowhere my legs tightly strapped together kissing my hand

liverpuddlian pudding liver puddinlian pud a milky thing in Liver pool like fish n chips
hospital camp the culmination of all that went on in the 60s

ambulance AnE amnesia , can i have a hug please they don't usually get asked that i could only remember two songs