word jam : a cut throat world

is it a cut throat world ? 
dog eat dog ? 

i even failed at failing ! 

shame , disgrace
ugliness, neediness
very unflattering selfie 

i have an injury 
in an awkward place 

he says to maybe give it a little nudge 

unacceptable feelings 
trapped in a hall of mirrors 

and i don't mean faking it 

what if it
were not something we achieve

what if it 
was not a performance
not a competition  

more of a slow burn 

i see a road ahead
it feels like rough terrain 
going up stream in a strong current
a gritty road

i certainly lost my dignity 
on the booster ride 

stinging the sting 

its all my fault 
im a bad person 
i deserve to be punished 

my fickle heart 
is loyal to the truth 

his desperate attempt 
to show his feelings 

he likes to scare me 
to make me feel his pain 
his roar of passion 

do you promise to forgive me  

my buttons have been pushed 
until theyre sore


when a man wears a dress 
it draws attention to what he has