word jam : an injury in an awkward place

to bless someone like that 
you only need 
an occasional touch of your wand 

o don't want to be here anyway
and then I flew !

giving myself space
to feel the feelings 

i have an injury 
in an awkward place 

its a scary place to be 
when you leave behind 
all that you know 

and the earth opens up beneath you 

seduced by abuse i think 
in my case 

i get bullied alot 
and then i try to appease the bully 
until I'm fully hypnotised 

for something to be
really happening 

she broke her chains 

a stand off 
sparking tensions in the gulf 
where a tanker has been seized  

my shadow self 
says bad things to me 

we don't know what to do 
if its not a competition 
a football match at the weekend ! 

somebody offered 
to put me in a film 
i don't know who it was

i feel like my head's going to explode 

being gas lighted 
by an ex boyfriend 

what if this thought 
were not a promise 
not an offer of service 

even from a girl  

I'm doing it all wrong 
like I'm supposed to know what to do 

doing it like in the movies 

sweating 
beating self up 
flogging a dead horse