word jam : before the breakdown

psychosis is quite a drug like experience sometimes, 
with heightened senses 
and yes a sense that its a spiritual experience 
with rich deep colours and very intense feelings 

i was smiling about something else 
when he walked past 

how is a man supposed to love 
if he cant have all his feelings ? 
always having to Google everything 

the reptilian brotherhood 
asserting itself 
over the hippy dippy word 

funny how England and Italy
are in lockdown 
when they are the ones 
fighting the fascists 

a proper old school party man 

staying connected 
the energy of the earth 
passing between us 

some dumb virus 
people reported fever and sweating , 
feelings dizzy 
and having to lie down and curl up 

i am a robot or a tree 

our relationship is in lockdown 

doing love to someone
open up, open out ! 

woman up ! 

i touch my face 
imagining its your skin 
i can't do it with all these people watching 
yes i know i put it out 
but then i wanted to 

woman as instigator 
men are like wolves ... 

so say the hexes 

sometimes theres a proper ending 
and then you feel you need 
another proper ending 

does a woman even know when its finished 
because there are many stages 
prior to the breakdown 
which are very fulfilling