word jam : the hazy warmth of summer

there were three stone statues

traditionally
a ' damsel ' would be very coy with her suitor 
he might ask her to marry him several times 
before she consent 

he was supposed to be a mind reader 
and to know he wasnt harassing her 

the cold war could be dangerous 
tripping off my box 

basking in a fantasy 
feeling the summer inside, 
the hazy warmth 
relaxing the pain

as if nothing matters, bliss 
losses of sanity at times
feeling paranoid and insane 
but able to come out of it 

mending inner healing  

like a seizure , traumatised 
you can hit a place deeper inside 
n i told you how to do it 

clinging to a log in a stormy sea 

my little boat is sunk  

ECT

take up thy bed and walk 
you are having a fit 

im in shock from the earthquake 

thats knocked the stuffing out of me 
I've lost the plot and gone mad 

I've blown my brains out 

im not worried about dying 
I'm more concerned with how I'm living 

like a giant octopus 

i look like I've been electrocuted 
with my arms and legs 
kicking out everywhere 

enjoying the ugly parts  

the inner teenager
where we get our lust for adventure 
our detachment and our passion 

a fire pit of filth 

the occult 
the live hexing stacks 

if there is any chance 
of you giving your son another sibling 
you should go for it 

tailgating , angel wishes  

its all got too much 

he wanted revenge 
for when i did that to him 
although i didnt know it then 
i wasnt trying to hurt him  

push back the shadows 
I've never done anything to hurt him 

its like there is a drum skin
inside my soul, inside my chest 
being beaten black and blue   

the pain throbbing in my heart