jupitersterrain four

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sounds like you are not sure whether you are an alcoholic then
or what sort of issues would make you one

people generally think of an alcoholic as like a tramp,
sleeping on a cardboard box kind of stereotype

not so ... there are high functioning alcoholics everywhere
even famous people

inside that person is terror, emotional unavailability
a feeling of being out of control, extreme loneliness , insanity
the list goes on. If you don't like the meetings
you could try reading the Big Book
see if any of that touches you