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i had a wank outside the police station 
and one at Buckingham Palace 

so then i went to the sex addicts meeting 
and fancied someone there 

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i just imagined it all 
i sobbed in the ambulance 
over nothing ? 

being creative with the truth 
a point of law 

perfectly acceptable 
normal thing to do 

so why am i 
a bit of a slag ? 

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florid sexualised symptoms they said 

and there i was 
kissing strangers on Westminster bridge
one of them led me to a park  
i was lucky  
i just cracked up laughing   

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tje police said if i did it again 
i would be nicked 

i was a whistleblower 

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i exposed myself in the city at night 

i masturbated on the bus  
i took a small bird
put it in a pepper pot 
and made it fly out of my vagina  

after that i was detained 
under the mental health act 

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i want to be one of those chimps 

where is the sanctuary for humans 

with people lovingly washing my face 

im an endangered species 

without a smart phone 

i slowly open a bottle 

like an orangutan 

finding it all very interesting 

the glory of total freedom 

roaming around the streets screaming 

i could do whatever i wanted 

i had no fear 

she took a running leap 

held in the love of strangers 

screaming in agony 

archives

Friday, 26 August 2016

hospital camp , new book ,

the searing pain in my hip
when they try to roll me over


260816 10.05 am

the door is slammed shut ...
Im in a high security unit
surrounded by people who have just tried to kill themselves.
They are very angry .

My bags and pockets are searched
for medications, and implements, and even plastic bags
which are not allowed on the wards ...

i watch people make further attempts in there
one lady tried to strangle herself with a tourniquet

The heating doesnt work
it comes on in Summer and goes off in winter
and my bedroom smells of ammonia ...

091213

mustard soya milk blackcurrant milk shake dog rose tea

irish pizza n suddenly she was a football pitch with people running about on her

pillowcase

from late 2013

i like the way those feelings flow, his hands inside my soul pulling at the branches shaking the leaves that massage the feelings like a ripe fruit sharing the juice ... a cocktail where we finally found our differences ...


071213 830pm

my tongue hanging out feel vey sick ... n plunge into the ventilator the emergency team arrive n you feel the love of strong hands rolling you over onto the stretcher a blanket of bliss screaming in agony

two songs were playing in my head ... concussion strapped in tight the vehicle rattling away into the night like that gypsy move at 5 years old a tunnel to nowhere my legs tightly strapped together kissing my hand

liverpuddlian pudding liver puddinlian pud a milky thing in Liver pool like fish n chips
hospital camp the culmination of all that went on in the 60s

ambulance AnE amnesia , can i have a hug please they don't usually get asked that i could only remember two songs