jupitersterrain four

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anyway I'm just going to go over this again ... 
i says to my therapist that i don't always tell people about 
my positive feelings because they will attack me ... 

Torrero might be good on this ... and she says what if 
the feelings were not so big ... 

ok what is that about then i reckon it came from Chucky borking 
the thing through the supervisor or something 

i mean you don't expect that kind of attitude in a holistic centre 
anway aapparenlty i can go back and ask her what did you mean 
by which time Chucky and Trix will have prepared some other kind 
of wild goose chase and i have to decide if she is too weak to stand up to it 

Chucky feels that i should not have left him 

well i just found you very abusive Chuck I'm sorry if its 

your ilnnes but that is how i experienced you alrigh ... 

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one of my goals in 

life is to influence the composition of that damned committee 

of blue rinsed teddy bears ... 

deciding what i will and won't do in my personal life 

other goals to be myself and to escape the ego 
see what it does ... 

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and one problem with this is getting 

to a celing wehre i can see where the therapists issues are 

and it reverses the roles ... which kind of makes 

me feel unsupported like as if I'm carrying her stuff as well 

you know and most of these people skimp on their own 

work with themselves ... 

which rally pisses me off 

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and meanwhile 

these dooo dahs that don't approve of make up 

but are always on about penis and breast 

sizes and are the least personality conscious people i know about ... 

and how does that add up ... 

oh and by the way if we are introducing Sharia in this 
country or when rather will we do female circumcision under anaesthetic 

cus it will make things more difficult for my tapeworms .... 

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oh yes and there were three signs

a black toy pig 

a tortoiseshell feather 

and the appearance of a schizophrenic friend ....