jupitersterrain four

12.22

and Torrero is right I've got to be more disciplined 
and do different things ... 

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and this business of dissociatives being non consensual 
it is really hard ... you know because it is 
non consensual ... 

they watch you having sex and make reviews that are 
sometimes brilliant and you begrudge them having it ... and other 
times very abusive interpretation of your most intimate moments

the best thing to do is to take it down and use it to work from but i will 
sometimes do my nut because it is non consensual ... 

what yous are saying is that they are allowed to abuse me 
because they were abused is what the public health issue is about ....