jupitersterrain four

i suppose they want me to say that its my fault Fritzle cheated
because i fell for Darren and this caused him to lick 
Jewel ... and that i made it worse by getting 
annoyed with him about it ... 

and that ill go back to him ... 
yeah but i don't really want to though ... 
like aren't you supposed to want to be with the person 
rather than it being just an obligation ... 

and this is one reason i haven't signed the adoption papers
you see is because Jewel supports the gassing of me 
I've seen her joking about thorium and stuff ... 
so yeah you are not supposed to use 
children to barter with unless 
perhaps his mothers life is at risk ... 

so again you end up with something pretty deep 
intense and just physical ... 


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leaving it a few days would probably help just 
i keep seeing things i gotta have ... 

so yeah that was a good idea HD ... and the emotional 
level was also ruined by the assault 

i think its just the chemicals really 
is the main problem and added to the weight loss 
there is alot of bleach in my body ... 

and then this puts pressure on the bladder 
just when I'm about to get there is all really i remember
them doing this when Chucky was trying to phone me he said 
he should have known about the grapefruit ... its actually caused by gas ...