jupitersterrain four

2.50am 


and it was a better time  
for about ten years 
is really where the sexual thing 
took off actually although i don't still love him  

that was like alot more magnified 
than what happened before 
and then i had three more boyfriends 
with mental illnesses 

and sometimes physical ones 
and it can be difficult to relate to people 
that are not like that 

almost as if i grew up there 
not where i grew up 
cus being a very very grown up child 
just totally regressed to about three