jupitersterrain four

I jus want to cuddle you so much 
it really hurts 

2.52am 



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actually one way is to shut up isn't it Scare .... 
its like also I've got this emotional bank account that is 
well stocked from being so withdrawn ... 

and if i take it out and spend it runs out ... 
and then you get the cave thing 
crab thing i have to be hidden away 

2.25am 

Scarey you know Chuck is trying to find 
a local person to chat me up and jump me right ... 

like if I'm in a certain type of mood i might think well this is real 
and maybe its better this way ... 

you get me ... Scarey can you explain this ego thing does that 
bother you if you get self conscious in a positive way that actually spoils your feelings ... 

oh yes you said so ... 

cus id like to keep what we had if its possible ...