jupitersterrain four

9.30 am 15.04.13. 

course someone to practice on didn't mean 
it was no good ... 

a blow from the basement
that winds you in the stomach 
opening a box of lights 

and it does worry me when my mind wanders 
then again sometimes it worries me 
when it doesn't ... 

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there is no such thing
as fame as the ego perceives it 
that would invalidate itself 
the media could stop encouraging 
the harassment 

they make the porn 
and you buy it
does that entitle you 
to reach for their balls on the tube 

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a porn cocktail 

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is that black on the indside or 
white on the outside or what 

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so was riding headless on the horse 
when it smashed into a wall  

doesnt that take me back to Sleepy Hollow ... 


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dog barking 11.39am 

i banned her Scarey because i was just about to 
read your articles in the cafe on 
Saturday and she had two actresses 
sit next to me talking loudly about mental illnesses 
and implying that i don't like positive people 

and then people repeating this on the train 
and a rock band supporting her 
and the doo dah bandstand all excited ...

it made a very deep fracture ...  

why should i have someone abusing me 
on my plane ... 

you feel you're not allowed ... well I want to 
be allowed to ban people ... 

and maybe i got a locked room too then 
look I'm not stopping you seeing her 
just not with my stuff orlright ... 


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you know and its funny Chucky does have a 
chance of seeing everyone else off 
not because i want him too he's just very very clever ... 


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and you could if you wanted to 
yeah and I'm gonna leave you then 
i don't know how people cope with such 
complicated maths as if i betray her she will 
leave me and go out with someone else that is really hard ... 



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cus im not the only person thats clumsy and breaks 
things Scarey like that camel ... 

and you want to do what ever you want and 
im not supposed to mind ... 

which is just some sort of a doormat or what ... 
at least I'm not in there 24/7 nicking 
peoples stuff like she is ... 


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no I'm not trying to be a singer 
i just want to own my own material before 
someone else does 

and i am not some sort of glorified 
cleaning service 

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12.25pm

a door slams meaning that the fib are about 
to resort to biological weapons ... 



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what am i trying to do in life
get away from the ego 
which is not very easy with it 
shouting at your window 


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and yeah what if it was trannies fault 
well like maybe talk to me about it first 
before just going ahead with it ... 

i mean you did actually break one of my CDs
and i can't replace it my darling ... 


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and he's like only interested in breasts ... 

you know .. . your boyfriend is standing
there at your bedroom door try to 
reason why he should take a film or you having 
sex to train one of his toys 

and you know that the world is a nuthouse ....