jupitersterrain four

morning pages ( as in Artists Way ) 

course becomes book leaf pages in a few seconds .... 

neighbours door is tutting 
11.51am 

misc draft 

and then suddenly you're like oh thats 
so and so son and it wasn't where i was at all 
i just really felt him and people are going to think that 

and then you get this stupid smirk and the two sides
of you brain are like playing ping pong
it wastes alot of energy 

you know and this ego thing is ugly in a not illin kind of way 
I will hide behind your legs like a little child Scarey 

*****************


and you know what its like when someone tries to jump 
you and you think shit I'm really going to be missing 
out here or he might think i was winding him up 
or something 
which normally i don't do in real life ...

what do you say 
Scarey to someone that you 
really want to jump but are not going to .... 



************

you know and they are so 
busy with these artful plans they 
miss really obvious things that i could have pointed
out to them in fact sometimes i do just to watch them miss the point .... 

******************
i tried to give 
birth to Gods daughter actually 
but she kept morphing into other things 
so she isn't actually mine yet ... 

and that sounds conceited
in a different way ... 
you gave birth to God but actually he is God 
you see and you had to give birth to him 

and you really didn't mind
just he is really such a pain in the arse 

so maybe you Scarey might like to have
Gods sister would you ? 
or otherwise i will 

she's alot worse ... 

can you hear the seagulls laughing 
I'm sure there is a star up there
somewhere