jupitersterrain four

n then she realised it was ok to take a break

from sex just to put things 

into balance 


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i like sex as a medium if you like 

it has to do with the physical contact , the affection 




and seeking pain is like 

avoiding the real pain of recovery 

intriguing with more than one person 

in love with them as if each 

were the only one

and like what you were saying about 

being on stage 

its not about what i look like 

people are not really interested in that 

theres no point looking good 

if you are not enjoying it 




I'm reading a novel about a womans 

recovery from sadism ... 

not that I've been that into sadism 

in the physical sense ... 

the intriguing is sadistic in a way 

because you're constantly losing people 

and going through all the stages of grief