its not necessarily the quantity of time
its just with me i see him maybe a bit more than that
and i often feel i am not strong enough for him
like i can't really discuss the recovery programmes with him
in the way some people would ,
i don't seem to be giving him the inspiration that he needs
which might have to do with my mental illness.
Usually when we get together
we spend the time making jokes
which is fun but is not really getting him anywhere
and i don't feel strong enough to stand up to him
so we make the jokes and then i have to switch off you know
and get back to my own thing
things do not seem to be making any progress.
Also if i am badly affected by him , chances are he is also damaged by the contact
its very bad for him to feel he can affect someone
it reinforces the feeling that the addiction rules ...
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