jupitersterrain four

270615   4pm

playing with her hair ... 

she might be thinking about someone else ... 



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I could see how lust killed love 

but not the problem with fantasy 

both of them were fantasies. 

I suppose where that falls down 

is when the boiler plays up and I'm all alone 

miles away from any friends or family ... 

somehow i must have chose to put myself in this situation ... 


at the same time 

i hesitate to act out with someone for real 

that was quite a cynical experience 


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going to meditation groups 

i realise how you can go to different depths with it 

and this really enhances my programme 




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combining exercise and meditation 

eg a long uphill walk 

followed by lying down can be very relaxing